Denied by Destiny: Trapped in the Shadows of the Mate Bond novel Chapter 497

It doesn’t mean that he would leave his mate for me, and I wouldn’t want him to be with me just because of the baby.

To spend my life loving someone who felt trapped by my side? No thank you, I would rather do this alone.

As Sophia places the monitor on, my chest becomes constricted, the sudden realisation dawning upon me that I am going to be a single mother.

An overwhelming impending sense of fear that clouds my mind.

In all honesty, I felt like a fraud. A bad mum before even having the baby. As soon as the baby appears on the screen it will be all too real, and I’m not ready. I’m not prepared.

“Can we stop.” I shout out, unable to breathe. My chest continuing to tighten as the air I inhale doesn’t seem to have any oxygen in it. I was suffocating from the inside out, it’s the only way to explain it.

“What’s going on?” Dad’s asks as Sophia helps me to sit up, her eyes watching me carefully.

“Cleo?”

“I can’t…I’m sorry I thought I was ready for this but I’m not.” I pant out, pain now registering in my heart.

In truth I’m not ready to ask myself if what I am doing is the right thing for the baby, or for me.

“We can take a break, you can come back in a few times. I know this is all very overwhelming.” Sophia tries to calm me as she rubs my back…encouraging me to take small deep breaths.

That was an understatement. It was one thing to think I can do this alone, without him…but to then actually do something without him, without giving him a choice.

To face my baby knowing full well of the choice I was taking away…

No this wasn’t right, he should be here.

I need to get out of here, I can feel the walls closing in.

“Yes, I’ll come back in a few days.” I hurry to wipe the gel off my stomach, placing my hoodie back on and excusing myself from Sophia’s doctor office.

I needed space, I needed time to think.

I head home, not waiting for Mum and Dad. They will have questions and I need to give myself that breathing space to think on suitable answers.

I keep lying to them, I know I do.