Denied by Destiny: Trapped in the Shadows of the Mate Bond novel Chapter 65

Chapter 0065
Kaia POV
He pulls me onto the dance floor as soft romantic music plays in the background, changing from the pop like beat that was on only a moment ago.
I’ve never danced to intimately…not even on my own wedding day.
I’m not really sure what to expect.
Continuing to hold my hand, Hector slowly spins me into him, my breathing fluttering slightly by the move.
His other hand firmly places itself on my lower back, my top rising slightly against his hold. I can feel the pads of his fingers touching my exposed skin, which must only be milimetres in-between the hem of my top and the waistband of my jeans…but for how it feels…it could be my entire body exposed nakedly to him.
Damn this mate bond.
He pulls me closer into him and it could only be the two of us in this pack hall for all I care. Everybody else has faded away into the shadows.
His warm breath dances its own dance upon my temple before his lips almost touch the tip of my ear. I think if he wasn’t holding me so firmly, I would also melt away into the shadows.
I hate myself for being so easily distracted by him.
I hate myself because I was still angry at him. I didn’t want to dance, I wanted to shout at him, claw at him. Let him feel even an ounce of the pain I have felt.
How can I fight all day long yet the mate bond only increases its strength as a counter attack each time.
The only comparison I can give is it’s like trying to swim in a stormy sea, my body is exhausted from the fight and I know, as does those constant crashing waves, that I must submerge at some point. That I will submerge, it’s just a matter of when. The mate bond toying with me until I surrender.
It breaks my heart to know he will never feel this between us..this chemistry that buzzes only just underneath the skin’s surface.
The sparks that are ready to ignite from his very touch play a waiting game of their own. If touched his exposed skin..what would he feel.
Would his grey ash eyes burn their own fire. Would my own scent perfume this entire room in an attempt to lure him in…if I even have a scent to him.
“Tell him.” My wolf’s voice enters my head, she was back to full strength now.
“No.”
“Tell him, he might then reject her for us.”
J have to stifle a laugh from her hopes, her romantic concoction that she thinks is actually still a
possibility.
“I shouldn’t have to. I shouldn’t have to plead for my own mate to sense our bond.”
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Hector continues to sway us, my feet following his and have to fight the urge to keep looking down.
1 danced with Father as a silly child, often on his feet but never as an adult…my time at his pack was more learning how to defend myself than how to present myself.
I don’t think father ever wanted me to marry or mate. I don’t think he ever wanted me to leave him, he missed mother so much. I think he thought I would always be with him.
When the music stops playing I miss his hold instantly, the lack of his hand on my lower back leaves a thirst for more that will never be quenched.
My body was already fighting my mind and for once maybe….that’s what I needed. Just to taste the sweet
nectar of what should be mine.
“You’re distant this evening.” He walks us out where the noise of merriment makes me smile. Children
were running around playing chase, making their father’s chuckle.
“Yes.”
He walks us away from the pack hall, towards the gardens of the alpha house.
“You blame me?”
“Yes.” For once I am honest. I do not need to pretend anymore, I do not need to hold an alpha’s favour in order to remain safe in a pack.
I do not need to bite my tongue.
“Yes, I blame myself. I am sorry.”
He stops in his tracks making me turn to face him. His face showing his remorse in what happened, in how his lies came to light.
“I didn’t mean for you to find out that way. If I could take it back then I would. I’d take that pain away from you Kaia.”
His words confuse me.
“Will you consider moving back in?”
“Why?”
“Because I miss you.”
“I…”
“You don’t need to answer right away…give it some time to think.”
“What are you exactly asking of me?”
“To move back in with me…
“For what purpose. I am a pack member, I have a house within your pack. There is no need for me to be your guest now, I have been assigned accommodation There is no need for me to stay with you anymore.” My eyes gaze upon the garden around us, I do miss the alpha house…the company…but too much has passed between us.