Divorce to Destiny: Reclaiming My CEO Husband novel Chapter 166

166 Higher Power 

(Ashlyn) 

I sit on the edge of my narrow bed, the cold, sterile walls of the small, with nothing more than a bed, a table, and a chair. 

facility pressing in on me. The room is 

It’s a far cry from the luxury I was used to, but it’s fitting. I don’t deserve anything better. Not after everything I’ve done. 

The silence here is deafening in its way, but it gives me time to think, to reflect on everything that’s led me to this point. 

I’ve spent countless hours replaying the past in my mind, dissecting every action, every decision, every 

hurtful word. 

I’ve talked to my psychiatrist and, more importantly, listened. 

And I’ve come to realize just how wrong I was. How wrong Judy is. 

About everything. 

But it’s not just the talks and the thinking, there’s a higher power at play here. Now I know there’s something out there bigger than all of us, it was easy to accept responsibility. 

Easy for me to want to be a better person. 

When I think about Winona and Jayden, there’s a knot of guilt that tightens in my chest, a heavy weight that I know I’ll carry for the rest of my life. 

I 

1 was so consumed by my own desires, by what I thought I was entitled to, that I didn’t care who I hurt in the process. 

I told myself it was love for Jayden, for our future, but that was a lie. All I can ever remember is being told he was to be my husband. I never thought any different. I let myself believe that. 

The truth is, I was selfish, I wanted to win, to have everything I was groomed to believe was mine. I saw Winona as the obstacle in my path, and I didn’t care what I had to do to remove her. 

I manipulated, I lied, I hurt people–people who never deserved it. 

Winona didn’t deserve it. She’d been so kind to me when I was a lonely teenager. I hated her making me actually grow to like her. Judy said it was all a ploy. Winona never really liked me, she felt sorry for me, and she threw their love in my face.. 

All I can do now is face the consequences of my actions and accept the pain I’ve caused. I may be in here for many years. Even if I get out of the mental health facility, I’ll have to do my time in jail. 

I tried to kill her. I wanted her dead. I almost killed Jayden. The man I’ve never understood how to be without. But if he’d died that day, by my hand, what would I do then? I’d still have to survive. 

I’d have to learn to live without him or take my own life 

That’s where I thought I’d end up. That’s what I wanted since I stepped through these doors in my shackles. To end it all. I didn’t care how. Starve myself or something faster if I could 

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There’s barely any chance to do anything in here. 

Highly regulated. But Judy has her pawns here too and I have a phone to send her messages and read hers. She’s still on about the same old things. I play along, for now. 

I have to. I wouldn’t put it past her to have me killed if I go against her. I want to live now. 

But something happened. I was in the chapel and something profoundly life changing happened. And I knew. I knew I had to live and be a better person. 

There is a better way. I see that now. I’ve been awakened to something in life that’s bigger than me, bigger than all of us. 

Winona… I think about her a lot. No matter how much I tried to break her, she kept fighting, kept standing up for herself, for Jayden, for their daughter. 

I’m in this place, and for the first time in my life, I’m forced to confront who I really am. I can’t hide behind my wealth, my family name, or my looks. None of that means anything here. 

All that’s left is the truth–the truth of what I’ve done and who I’ve become. 

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to make up for it, or if Wihona will ever forgive me. She shouldn’t. I’m not deserving of forgiveness. But it’s not forgiveness I’m looking for. I want to change.