"Jacob, I can forgive you if it is for anything else, but how can I forgive you on this matter? You are happier living with another woman. What about me? What should I do?"
Alice demanded in a pleading tone. Tears welled up in her eyes again, threatening to fall. Almost immediately, she blinked back her tears. And it was a deliberate act.
Jacob sighed, getting more impatient as this conversation seemed to be endless.
"Don't talk about anything else. Have an abortion,"
Jacob retorted, hitting the nail on the head. He distinctly voiced out what she didn't want to hear the most. Although he didn't have the heart to give up the child, he had no other choice.
He figured that there was no other alternative, but having the baby aborted was still the best option for everyone, although Alice would refuse and even Sara was also against his idea of resorting to abortion. But he couldn't think of any better way except this one.
"What did you say?" Alice could hardly speak. And with a horrified expression, she stared at Jacob as if she were looking at a devil. She felt totally appalled that Jacob seriously said those words without the tiniest bit of hesitation.
But despite her feeling unnerved by his startling words, she was more convinced of what she had guessed.
"How can you be so cruel, Jacob? I have spent all my youth on you. Do you really have the heart to leave me alone and let me live a miserable life? I don't even have friends because I have always regarded you as my whole world."
Her voice broke as her lower lip trembled. And with tears burning her eyes, she failed to suppress a sob. She knew it was not right to cry, but she felt downright terrible if she forbade herself from shedding these tears.
Anger stirred within her, and she felt wronged. She was aggrieved, and she had no one to talk to, so she had to bear it by herself.
But she knew that having to endure this silently would not do any good to her in the long run. Time would come she wouldn't be able to carry on. Besides, Jacob treated her so differently now.
Her heart ached as resentment gripped her. Everything was vividly clear to her now. Jacob didn't have the same old feelings for her. So treating her the way he used to would now only be a part of the memories they had shared previously. And he had taken away too many things that initially belonged to her.
What once she considered as her own was now taken away by another woman. Apart from this, he didn't allow her to say anything unpleasant about Sara.
Then what did she do wrong? Her resentment grew deeper as she contemplated further. As fury roared through her mind, she held onto the chair tightly. She couldn't care less that the pregnant woman shouldn't be angry.
Jacob's demeanor softened, but a smile that was equally evil and attractive instantly appeared on his face. It seemed like he was reluctant to reveal something directly.
"Your youth? Alice, although I was not with you abroad, I've heard a lot about you. Do you think I didn't know what you did abroad?"
Jacob countered, wearing a mocking smile on his face. He didn't expect that this woman would talk about her youth. 'So only her youth counted while my own didn't deserve anything?'
He sighed inwardly. He found this insanely ridiculous. Since they were all equal in exchange, there was no need to say who had lost. Moreover, he could only consider those romantic affairs which she had done abroad as mere compensation for what he did today.
Alice instinctively met his gaze. Her eyes widened in total surprise that he knew her past! It was true that she had been worried about this, but she had never taken time to consider it carefully.
'So this turned out to be the reason he gave up on me?' Alice mused, slightly feeling a sense of relief, knowing that he left her not all because of Sara.
Her thoughts jumbled as she tried to figure things out. Now she felt torn. She found herself glad and at the same time unwilling. This time, she realized, she couldn't keep Jacob anymore.
Besides, she did commit a lot of things that she didn't dare to tell him. Because if she did, everything would fall into ruin.
"Have you investigated me?" she asked. Her eyes appeared calm now. She seemed to get hold of herself as she was not as aggressive as she acted earlier. Since everything had been made clear, then she resigned herself with the thought that there would be nothing else.
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