Ex-wife, Please Come Back novel Chapter 377

No matter how brave a person faced his past, he would always find it difficult to confront his original scheme and desire back then. James's plan, which he had initially mapped out, deviated from what he wanted to do in the first place. And for him to conceal what was in his heart, the word "leave" became part of him.

When James returned to his room, Jacob remained sitting on the wide, leather sofa in the living room. A blank expression was clearly etched on his face giving an impression that his mind was into deep thought. And with the soft orange light that gently spattered across his body, he seemed to mellow in such a warm scene.

Moments later, he unconsciously lay down on the sofa, seemingly with a thousand thoughts running through his mind. He was reflecting on forgiving the past and starting over. However, his thoughts were deeply disturbed by James's words. All his life, he owed these two men a lot.

One of them was Michael, his father. This man brought him up, although he had no obligation to raise him. And this man also treated him genuinely as a son, without reservation, even if he should be a thorn in his life.

The other one was James, his biological father. He was the closest person to him and always cared for nothing but him. But sadly, in the end, he felt he got nothing.

Jacob knew that nothing was perfect in this world. And such a sense of perfection in all aspects of life was hard to get. In the same way, genuinely good people were worth waiting for. Because people, who were in the wrong place at the wrong time, would eventually be submerged by the torrent of time.

And once these people drowned with the said torrent of time, they would surely forget what they had said and done.

Devoid of any emotion, Jacob was in a trance. While emptiness slowly engulfed his mind, his whole body seemed to float rather languidly. Now, both his body and mind were totally drained and exhausted.

Deep down, he knew that he had to face and bear everything by himself in the future. Although being independent was something he wished and desired for the longest time, he fully understood how challenging it was in reality.

His father, Michael, had spent all his life building the company. But still, as his son, he couldn't keep it. And whether he chose to keep the company or not, guilt would still haunt him anyway. Because this time around, all he wanted to do was to follow his heart.

He could have started his journey of finding himself way back then, but he happened to drag himself into the business world a lot longer than necessary. Jacob closed his eyes. And spontaneously, Michael's face appeared so vivid in his mind.

At this point in time, he felt how much he had missed Michael. He would never forget that he treated him as his own son, even at the last moments of his life.

Now, he couldn't help feeling ashamed of himself. He believed that probably no one else could do that the way Michael did. And this was something that made him respect Michael the most.

Although his father had passed away, he kept him and all his memories alive in his heart. Somehow, this revealed that he respected Michael more than anyone else.

But this didn't mean that James was not as important as Michael in his heart. For so many years, James was like a living legend to him.

They even had done notable things together, which became legendary in the eyes of the public.

These countless and remarkable experiences with James provided him that sense of feeling like he was also a legend. Of course, it didn't hold that much importance to him now. To renew and rebuild their legendary life was all that mattered to him in his current state.

Ever since the news broke out up to this time, he remained surprisingly calm when thoughts of Alice popped in his mind. 'Was this the result she aspired to see?' Jacob mused. He didn't know, but he was sure that all the feelings he had for her had quickly disappeared the moment this thing surfaced.

He thought that if Alice genuinely loved him or cared for him, she wouldn't do such a thing. True love was to fulfill what he wished rather than finding a means to destroy him.

On reflection, he found that his heart held no trace of a feeling of disappointment in her. It dawned on him instead that loving the wrong person was as painful as eating a fly. With this in mind, he didn't even bother to describe what exactly it felt.

When he fell into thinking that Sara was not his first love, he could only let out a deep sigh with regret. But he hurriedly reasoned in his mind that without comparison, how could he know who he loved deeply in his heart?

And he had always known by heart that what he lost was much more than what he gained. Just quite recently, there was an impression that he had obtained a lot of things.

But unbeknownst to many, he had suffered great losses, which could be said unimaginable to most people. How many countless days and nights he had dedicated to learn and to work for the company. And this enormous amount of time equated to nothing but the precious time he sacrificed for his family and friends.

Others may think it was time that only had passed. But he certainly knew that it was not the case. It was his youth, his passion, and his determination that had slipped away with time, and they would never, ever return.

Now what had left of him was a strange feeling for Alice. He felt nothing when he thought of her. It was like a breeze that blew over and disappeared the next second. Jacob felt like they had never been in love with each other before.

But he felt much better this way. Otherwise, the one he had previously loved could only be his enemy. And once this happened, it would be heartbreaking for him. So he didn't dare to face such an enemy.