Fake Dating Alpha Hockey Captain novel Chapter 57

#Chapter 57: A Heavy Heart

Alex leads me to a small room, simply furnished with a bed a small chest of drawers, and mirror. If you expect homes in a pack base to be rustic, they’re not. In fact, this furniture looks antique and much nicer than what I have at home.

He sets my overstuffed backpack down against the wall and looks around the room. He puts his hands in his back pockets and begins rocking on his heels. “It’s not much, but it’s clean.”

“It’sss perfect.”

I sit down on the bed and bounce a few times to test it. Alex takes this as an invitation and sits beside me. Again, not touching me but close enough that he could.

We sit in silence for a moment. I don’t know what to say. I mean, this has all been so crazy and I haven’t really had time to process all of this.

But I feel safe here; I didn’t at home, not anymore. My mind wanders briefly to my mother. I wonder if she’s in bed worried about me, and I hope she’s alright. I should text her goodnight.

Alex nudges me with his shoulder. “You’re quiet. I’m sure you’re tired, so I’ll let you go. Unless you want me to tuck you in…” he adds with a gleam in his eye.

Oh, how I want that!!! But not in his parents‘ house. It would feel weird to get touchy–feely at all with his parents next door.

I know I’m blushing because my face is hot. My whole body is! But I try to compose myself. Alex is watching me, having fun at my expense. It’s not fair.

“I don’t think. Under the ccc–circimsss–tances.‘

He leans in a little closer, one arm poised behind my back. “Would a kiss be okay?”

I bite my lip and a growl sound deep from within Alex answers.

Holy cow! That’s so raw…so hot!

Instead of risking the wrong answer, I lean in and kiss him. Alex parts his lips and I feel his wet tongue playfully creep into my mouth, gentle at first. But when I match his move, he lets go and is all in.

He turns his body in to me and puts his other hand behind my head. Which is good, because it feels so light right now that I could just float away on the wind.

Because something is different about this kiss. I mean, it’s not our first, but the others were so unexpected. I could tell he was holding back a little bit. I know I did.

Not this time. Alex leans into me and his pine scent becomes overpowering. I’m lost in a forest of sensations I never felt with Oliver. This kiss is respectful, but desperate. Something we both needed.

I don’t want it to end. I want to lay down and give myself over to him…only I can’t bring myself to take that step; things could go too far, and a part of me desperately wants that. The other part knows I can’t keep him and that anything I give him will be lost forever.

The latter part of me wins the argument when it reminds me we’re in his parents‘ house.

I finally pull away to breath. Alex leans his forehead against mine and my heart breaks a little more.

“I wanted to do that earlier, but my mind was so jumbled up. You know what I mean.”

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#Chapter 57: A Heavy Heart

“Hmmmm. It wasss nice.‘

I straighten up and look over at the door, which is partially ajar, and don’t see anyone watching–to my relief. Alex notices. “Don’t worry. My parents aren’t out there. They’re probably getting ready for bed right now.” He leans in to kiss me again, and I put my hand against his chest, holding him back. “Not here.”

His sigh is deep and defeated. “Ahhh…okay.”

I’m relieved that he doesn’t argue. Instead, he wraps his ams around me and holds me, enveloping me in his pine scent. Leaving a little for me to relish when he’s gone.

After Alex leaves, I sneak into the bathroom and wash up. The house is quiet and I know his parents‘ bedroom is somewhere at the other end of the house, so I don’t risk running into thein..

I text my mom goodnight while I turn down the bed, and she immediately replies. This is reassuring: I do fear some rogue wolf is still stalking the house looking for me. I couldn’t bear it if something happened to her while I’m gone.

While I’m hiding.

It’s just another thing to worry about.

When I’m finally able to slide under the covers and get comfortable, my mind refuses to relent. I have so much to think about now aside from my mom’s safety–so much I didn’t know before.

Like that Alex’s brother might not recover. The whole Alpha thing bothers me. Alex has made it clear–at least to me–that he doesn’t want to lead the pack. But has he discussed this with his parents? And even if he did, is it a choice he can even make?

It’s true Alex is a natural–born leader. I’ve seen it firsthand in the rink. His team adores him–would do anything for him. I’m sure he would make a great Alpha. Only that means he’s here. Forever. Not with me. That realization breaks my heart.

Another thing I can’t settle with is that Alex’s birthday is only a few days away. Or that the lore is correct: Werewolves have a fated mate which means Alex will discover his, maybe in just a few days–and it won’t be me because I’m not a wolf.

Will it be Rita? I haven’t met other females, but I tried to spy any at dinner. Alex didn’t talk to anyone else, but that is only because I was there. I did see at least a handful of other young people there, around our age. It could be