Fall For My Ex's Mafia Father novel Chapter 135

And considering my two “dates” this evening, I definitely know which one I preferred.

I climb groaning into bed, pulling my covers up over me, still shaken from my experiences but starting to feel better. Just before I drift off to sleep, I grab my phone –

Not the Kent phone, the burner. The one Janeen gave me.

And I type in Ivan’s number, and send him a quick text to say goodnight.

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Half an hour has passed since Fay left the room, and Kent is still laying on the floor, crippled with pain and anxiety. He presses his eyes closed against it, wanting – quite desperately – to be anywhere else, to be anyone else.

God damn it, but he hates himself right now. Hates every choice he’s ever made that has led him here, to this – to laying in his underwear on the floor of his secret room, feeling like the absolute worst person on earth.

Because he knows he’s made a mistake – that none of this is what he wanted, or how he wanted it, with Fay. But for the life of him, he doesn’t know how to not do precisely this.

As he considers that idea, Kent scolds himself, because – obviously – he knows how to not do this. He’s had sex with women in much simpler ways – normal sex, good sex, in a bed without ropes and chains. Not every woman he’s ever brought home has been locked up in this room, restrained for him. He doesn’t need the kink to have sex – sometimes it’s just an extra, a bonus that allows him to explore his obsession with control.

Because that’s what it’s all about, after all, Kent thinks ruefully. Control. Everything is about control – controlling his life, his world, the underworld, his business ventures, the threats to his power and everything he and his family have built. He has to keep a tight fist around all of it – absolutely all of it – or it will fall apart.

And Fay –

Somehow, fucking Fay –

This wisp of a girl, this tiny, naïve, coltish thing who knows absolutely nothing about this world –

Somehow, she is the thing that threatened to undo it all. Because she makes him absolutely lose control. With her, he has no idea what he will do next.