Fated To The Alpha novel Chapter 105

Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 105

I try to do as Andrei asks with his deep breathing, but it was hard to stifle my giggles when I could hear him breathing deeply, I was just waiting for him to break out in a shaman dance. Cracking an eye open, I find his eyes closed as he took this very seriously. He looked quite funny, especially from his size sitting cross legged and his back straight, meditation was never my thing, so I kind of found it pointless. But I still tried to be a good sport and closed my eyes, listening to his deep breathing and trying not burst out into a fit of giggles.

I lose track of time as we sit there, the sun making me sweat profusely while he tells me to search for m y mind’s eye or some whacked voodoo crap. Feeling fur brush my arm, I open my eyes to see Maddox sitting beside me with his head cocked to the side as he watches Andrei, Maddox deep voice flitting through my head.

“What is he doing?”

“No idea” I tell him, looking to my side Mateo was laying on his side on the grass with his head propped on his hand. I try not to laugh when I watch him clean his apple on his shorts before biting into it loudly. The crunch of his crisp green apple sounded loud in comparison to Andrei’s deep breathing, I see Andrei open up his eyes before glaring at Mateo.

“What, just watching you do your weird panting just pretend I’m not here” Mateo tells him sending him a wink.

“It’s called meditation”

“You call it meditation, I call it panting like a heffer but please continue bet the ladies love you panting over the top of them like that” Mateo tells him and Andrei growls at him. Mateo however was unfazed by him and continued to eat his apple.

Andrei turns and looks at Maddox he chuckles,

shaking his head, “ Seriously Ezra, I mean her no harm you can shift back, I am not going to attack m y own sister” Andrei tells him.

“That’s Maddox, not Ezra. Maddox hasn’t given him control back yet after Kat turned demonic, I tried to ring you but you never answered your damn phone” Mateo tells him.

“What do you mean, kat turned demonic?” Andrei asks and I also look at him wondering what the hell Mateo was talking about.

“Kat, she” Mateo looks at me worriedly while I wait for him to explain what he meant.

“She lost it, became angry and she almost seemed insane ” I pulled a face at what he said, he sounded insane, I have no memory of anything happening after we left the meeting.

“Ezra had to mark her again to subdue her and then Maddox took over, came home last night drenched in blood after he killed some shit and one of our patrollers”

“What? You killed someone? Maddox please give Ezra back control” I ask, looking at Maddox but he gets up and walks away with a growl. He didn’t seem angry, in fact I couldn’t feel anything emotion wise coming from him at all, like he felt nothing.

“So it’s already happening” Andrei mutters, making me look at him. He looked deep in thought.

“What’s happening?” Both Mateo and I ask at the same time.

“Jinx” Mateo says and I roll my eyes at him.

“The madness, it comes with being a Gemini, you need to get her to shift it might help. Any time she heals someone it will get worse, the last Gemini wolf killed his own mates by accident then killed himself”

“The journals said they died, never said anything about him killing them” I tell Andrei.

“Yeah well I have Josiah’s actual journal, plus one o f his mates, everytime he healed someone, his behaviour became erratic, but even before that, before he first shifted after becoming what he was, his mates spoke of him sleep walking and that his anger was explosive, his behaviour erratic. After he killed his mates, his journal was nearly unreadable, his thoughts that manic he went completely insane. Some of the things I found said that a Gemini wolf’s mates can take the darkness that comes with being a Gemini, share it if you will. That must be why Maddox took over when Ezra marked you, the madness that was in you transferred to him”

“So I will go insane?” I ask him, horrified. This was meant to break the curse, not give me a new one.

“Not necessarily, as long as you don’t bring back the dead, it should be manageable, plus we have all different medications that can help these days. Back then, they didn’t have mood stabilizers or know what to even call schizophrenia or different mental illnesses, we have resources that can help these things in today’s day and age. But yes, everytime you heal someone it takes a piece of you, you are essentially giving a piece of yourself to them and you are taking the death from them, that would be enough to send anyone mad Kat, so just stay away from dead people, but there is more, for you to heal someone, or bring them back from the dead, you have to kill someone to harbour that level healing ability, a life for a life essentially, small things are fine like a wound or whatever but to heal someone who is dead or critically injured that will mean killing someone else”

“Well I don’t plan on bringing back the dead, or killing anyone” I tell him.

“Then you should be fine with your mates help, but you need to shift, it helps because once shifted you can recharge off the moon, kind of like you did when you were a lunar healer, keeps not only you strong but your mind too” Andrei tells me.

“I don’t get it, how do you know so much?” I ask him.

“Anthony, you should meet him sometime, that’s why your father came to my territory, he thought Anthony had something to do with your mothers death, but in fact it was me. I needed those scrolls from Jackson to put the final pieces together” Andrei says. I go to get up at his words but he puts his hands up pointing to the grass. “Please let me explain before you turn homicidal” I sit back down deciding to hear him out, he had given us more information than anyone so far.

“I know what I did to help Jackson was wrong, Kat. But your family has a lot of secrets, you have only seen them in a certain light, it’s only now that you are really learning who they are, eventually you will learn to trust no one, not even me. My intentions are good right now but people change kat, I do mean it when I say I mean you no harm and I couldn’t see a reason for me wanting to go against you, but just remember everyone has a tipping point, everyone has something they would kill for. Don’ t trust anyone, only your mates. Secrets get people killed. You will learn that, one way or another”