Fated To The Alpha novel Chapter 173

Fated To The Alpha by Jessica Hall Chapter 173

Kat POV

I never asked for this, never asked to become Queen of Alpha’s. My anxiety levels are through the roof. That is putting it mildly as I tried to will myself not to hyperventilate at the thought of walking into this meeting. I felt inadequate and unfit to be ruler, who would have thought moving blindly into Ezra’s pack that it would alter my entire life completely. I never in a million years would have thought I would ever become a Queen. That is the sort shit that happens in fairy tales. I didn’t want to be a fairytale I liked reading them,  and that didn’t mean I  wanted to become fucking Cinderella.

My life would have been so much simpler if I truly had no wolf. If  I didn’t become a Gemini. No amount of preparing would have readied me for this shit my life has turned into. A year and a half ago no one knew I existed and now I am some deity that everyone expects shit from. I felt like an imposter.

“Will you stop pacing, you are making me dizzy” Mateo says, making me stop. I hadn’t even realized he was in the room with me. So trapped in my own thoughts I didn’t hear him come in.

Ezra steps out of the closet in his suit looking as delicious as ever, I shake the thought away and go back to my pacing, something was seriously wrong with my libido at the moment. My thoughts always go to the gutter the moment they are around.

“Kat seriously what is wrong?” Mateo asks.

“Are you kidding I am about to be fed to the wolves, literally fed to god damn Alpha wolves when I walk in there. I don’t want to challenge anyone’s title” I tell him and he sighs.

“Well unfortunately    that isn’t up to you, powers determined by ranking, and you outrank everyone. Did you seriously think it was going to be like a normal Alpha meeting, that no one would notice and challenge that rank?”

“Ah yeah I did, I am not Queen material. I don’t even like leaving the house let alone having to deal with not just one pack but loo’s now” I tell him and Ezra chuckles behind me.

“What’s so funny?”

“You are, you literally brought an entire pack back from the dead, and killed yourself to do it. And you don’t think you are worthy of ruling? You have already proven you would give your life for the sake of others, not many can say they died for their pack

or their rival pack, so please tell me how you are not worthy of being their Queen” Ezra says.

“Can’t you do it, just challenge the Alpha of Alpha’s so I don’t have to?”

“I am sure all three of us will be challenged there, we all out rank them now, but you more so” Ezra tells me and I roll my eyes.

“That’s a load of crap, you don’t bow to me so what makes you think this Dominic will?” I tell him.

“We are equals and we are mates that’s how it goes, you becoming a Goddess just amped our Auras up, making us your king’s. And you are wrong by the way. Your Aura is a lot stronger than mine, you just don’t know how to use it properly”

“I have used it heaps on you and you never falter” I point out.

“I promise I feel it Kat, why do you think I get Maddox out. Sick bastard actually likes the pain, that’s the only reason he can resist it and also because he is a stubborn prick and waits for you to exert too much energy”

“Yeah I need to ask Seline about that, I didn’t realize using it was so exhausting and you don’t seem to struggle like that with yours”

“Mateo and I have a theory about it actually, might have something to do with you being a Gemini, probably similar to your healing ability, you can’t heal without us. Maybe it works similar because I am using mine on you, so I am not lending my energy to you when I am using mine against you”

“Kind of makes sense”  I tell him,  though I still hated the idea of  everytime  I get hurt they take it from me, yet I use my Aura and he only has to wait me out because he can’t take that from me too if he is using his. That irritated me more than it should and what good is being a healer if I can’t heal myself.

“We will find  out at   the Alpha meeting, when its not me you are challenging”

“What if it does exhaust me, though. He could wait me out, like Maddox and kill me ” I ask worriedly.

“You really think  we would just let you die? Seriously Kat, we won’t just sit there and watch our mate get hurt, if we see you distressed we will step in, besides stress less  it won’t  happen. Andrei will be there too, plenty of us to take them on, plus your father” he says before raising an eyebrow at Mateo and making me look at him as he tries to do up his tie.

His fingers fumbling and making a knot of it before he gets cranky tossing it on the floor.

“You’re done with your hissy fit?” Ezra asks him, amusement in his eyes as he watches our mate.

“You know I hate wearing ties, stupid. Who the hell decided a flappy leash hanging from your neck was needed with a suit” He whines as Ezra bends down and scoops it up.

“Probably invented by a man who was sick of going to meetings so he had something he could use hang himself from the boredom” He whines as Ezra approaches him to fix his tie.

“ Speaking of Dad, he rang me last night. Told me Sage had finally let Andrei mark her” I tell them.

“That’s good, one less thing to worry about. Congratulations you no longer have to kill your own brother” Mateo laughs.

“Yeah but that’s the thing worrying me, the bond isn’t complete until he mates her and I don’t know how to approach that subject with them because Sage has no ovaries and I couldn’t even smell any sort of pheromones from her at all when she was here for her to go into heat”

“I thought they just had to mark each other?”