Fated To The Alpha novel Chapter 263

Chapter 263 

Kyan POV 

Time was not something I really paid attention to. I felt Jonah with Ella earlier, and I had been fighting the urge to go to them ever since. Yet I welcomed the pain from my link to Jonah; I didn’t see it as betrayal, just that Kaif was stupid enough to mark him as our mate. H e was never intended for us but for her. However, the pain was a distraction from the torment of grief rolling through me. The guilt, anger, and profound sadness that ebbed was relentless a s I sat in this silent house that was much too big for a coven, let alone one person.

Working just served to piss me off, so I gave that idea the flick the moment it rose and our employees didn’t deserve to put up with my attitude or an uneasy Kaif rearing his head and snapping at someone. Yet the bottle in my hand didn’t serve its purpose of drowning my Sorrow, it just made me think more about it.

“We could always go home,” Kaif growled at me.

“We are home, idiot,” I snap at him. All this because he had to dip his wick in Hades’ daughter. I thought with a snarl, earning a growl from Kaif at my thoughts. How one mistake could have a domino effect falling into the next generation and so on, destroying an entire bloodline, the same loss and heartache again and again.

“Home is wherever they are, this is just a house,” Kaif said, and I raised my eyebrows at his words and let out a breath.

“No, this is our prison to your past,” I tell him bitterly.

“This isn’t a prison, Kyan. You have a door you can walk out of. Your father doesn’t. None of them do. They don’t get a choice. You still have one, so make the right one,”

“Yeah, because you were so accepting of Jonah when he was talking about fucking our mate, “I told him. I wasn’t going to put Jonah at risk and, in turn, put Ella at risk by going over there even though that is all I wanted to do.

Kaif sighs. “I didn’t disapprove, Kyan; I was just uncomfortable.” I shake my head. To me, it was the same difference.

“Doesn’t matter the fact remains, we are destined to be on our own, at least then no more curse because no one to follow on the name, or our cursed blood, and I won’t have to abandon no kids, so we good,” I tell him, swigging from the bottle.

“It’s not just about following on the name or bloodline Kyan, and he didn’t abandon you; Mara still loves us. You just refuse to allow her too.” Kaif snapped at me.

“Yeah, because you loved your mates so much you killed them,” I spat, instantly regretting it when I felt his hurt at my words,”

“When I met Luna, I loved her instantly. Then her father took her away, leaving me with a son to raise. I was bitter and angry at Hades, but I still loved Luna. She broke me when she returned, but she didn’t return for me; that crushed me most,” Kaif murmurs. I roll my eyes not wanting to listen to his life lessons, though Kaif was determined to give them.

“Then Hades cursed me, and as much as I hated him, she was his daughter, and I probably would have done the same. Yet even with him cursing me, I still found I loved her, despite her hating me, and you know why?” Kaif asked me, and I rolled my eyes. “Why?” I asked.

“Because she was the mother of my son, that was one thing I could always love her for, for giving me a son,” Kaif answered.

“And the others?” I asked him. I didn’t understand why he just kept going with the curse. Why not just remain on your own and let it die out naturally?

“I loved all of them, each and every single one of them even after they tried to do what they did. I knew it wasn’t their fault, yet I loved my children more; I picked them over and over again, even if it meant destroying the women I loved repeatedly. I loved them, and I loved all my kids Kyan. Why do you think I always made sure to keep them safe, to set their mothers free and their future kids free. I couldn’t just give up and die and let them rot in the shadows, not even Luna when she rejected.”

“But you didn’t abandon your sons?” I tell him.

ITS

“No, but I made a sacrifice just like what your father did, only different. He chose your life over him, he chose your future over his and Ella’s because she was an important part of it. He did what a parent is supposed to do. I get you’re angry and sad, but if the tables were turned, what would you have done?” I thought his words over knowing I would have done the same, o I the guilt would have made me do the same in the end anyway. 

“Lucas was the same, Kyan; he didn’t have to take your father’s place and raise you. He did it because he wanted to. You were the last piece of his sister, his nephew. Your mother’s child, h e could have hated your father for taking your mother as his mate, knowing the bloodline was doomed; your father never hid it. He was always upfront with him, that much is clear because Lucas always knew more than he should. He did it because your mother loved your father, and he respected the mate bond. He then honored her by being there long after she died; he didn’t have to be. He was always helping raise you, and he did right into adulthood. He took the place of your father, so you had one, you became his son too, and once you were grown, he still stayed when he could have left.” Kaif tells me.

“Lucas could have had a life,” I scoffed. He would be alive still if he walked away as he should have.

“Yes, but you became his life because he chose you over himself; you were more important. Lucas stayed despite being petrified of the future your father told him would come true, the one he kept hidden from even us, and why is that Kyan? What do you think the future was your father saw for Lucas?” Kaif asked.

“You believe Lucas knew Marabella would kill herself because of me?” I ask him.

“I know he did because he stood right there and didn’t flinch when Eziah plunged that knife into his neck. He had plenty of time to move Kyan, but he remained. He chose his son because you were as much his as you were your fathers. Lucas chose Marabella over himself because you needed her more than you needed him. Lucas didn’t need kids; he had you, and h e was content with that because if he wasn’t he would have walked away, but he didn’t. A child doesn’t have to be made by you for you to love them like your own, look at Jonah,” Kaif said before prattling on. Though I was actually paying attention to the old fossilized Lycan.

“You think you lost your father, but you gained two more. Andrei always treated us like his, just like he treated and loved Jonah the same as Rose. You lost your father but gained two others in Andrei and Lucas. Your father’s sacrifice was necessary for his son to live, just like mine was to ensure my sons lived. He gave his last breath to ensure you took your next one. Just like I broke my own heart repeatedly by killing them to ensure my sons kept beating, you can’t have everything without losing something in return,”

“But I have already lost everything, Kaif. Look around. No one is here,” I snapped at him.

“Yes, because they’re waiting for you to pull your damn head out of your ass and stop wallowing over things you can’t change,” Kaif growled.

“Yeah, from the feels earlier, they aren’t waiting,” I deadpan.

“And you call me jealous!” Kaif huffs.

“I’m not jealous; I am… happy for them?” Though that tasted wrong on the tip of my tongue as I said it.

“So happy that you are here and they are there waiting for you?”

“They aren’t bloody waiting?”

“Back in your day, you wiped your ass with gum leaf and thought the world was flat,’ I deadpan. He shakes his head at me, well my head because he had control still. His fingers fumbled with the phone for a few seconds before he rang Jonah.

“Give me 20 minutes, and I will be there. Do you want me to wake Mara and we stay there, or a ml bringing him here?”