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It’s been a month since I saw Jake with that woman. I spend it hiding away. Other than studying, I don’t leave. I know everyone is talking. Jake’s latest bit I caught him with has made it known why he walked.
Everyone knows, and everyone is talking about me like I’m a nun.
“Do something!” Bex shouts at me.
“Like what?” Nothing I do will bring Jake back.
“Prove the asshole wrong, get people talking about you and how much you do. Write a sex list.”
I laugh at her words.
“What the hell is a sex list?”
Rolling her eyes at me, she laughs. “It’s a list of things you need to do or try. It revolves mostly around sex. Things like visiting a sex shop, having a one–night stand, and making a sex video. There are loads. Prove you’re not what he says.” She turns and walks out.
It could be fun, and right now, I have nothing to lose–not when everyone says I’m a nun. I grab a pen and notebook and sit. My eyes look over the blank paper.
My mind comes up blank as I sit and consider.
Visit a sex shop
Watch porn
Use a sex toy
Kiss a random guy
Kiss a woman
Take pole dancing lessons.
Do a sexy photoshoot
Dance at an adult club
Buy sexy lingerie
Have a threesome
Visit a sex club
I keep going, and by the time I’m finished, the list is two pages long. Looking through it, I decided now that I should get started. I need to
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do something.
Grabbing the laptop, I open it and load up a porn site. This seems like a good starting place.
This is out of my element. Scrolling through, I stop at a video. I watch it, and shaking my head, I quickly close that video. That was too much too soon. Clicking on another, I begin watching it. I’m astounded–she looks like she’s enjoying it a hell of a lot. So why don’t I feel pleasure like that?
I lose myself in the video, soon finding myself watching more after it, and th
night disappears. Some of the videos do really make me feel like a prude.
Today has gone quickly. Class has ended, and I’m determined to cross another item off the list. Parking the car, I walk to the shop. Standing outside, I look at the store. Sucking in a breath, I push the door open and walk in. I begin to look around.
My hand trails over the leather lingerie. Picking up a set, I carry it with me as I continue to look through the lingerie and make my way
towards the sex toys.
I stop at them and glance around. Now what? My hand reaches out blindly and grabs three different ones. I’ve no idea what they are, but I’m not about to read the boxes in the shop. Walking towards the till to pay, I stop.
My eyes see the items. I grab a pair of handcuffs and a flogger and
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continue to the till. I place the items down. I watch as she picks each item up and scans them all before I pay, and she hands me the bag.
Getting into the car, I laugh. I did it. What the hell did I buy? I laugh, knowing that maybe I should have done research before. When I get home, I place the items in the drawer next to my bed. They are items I have to use. Otherwise, why visit a shop and buy them?
“We’re going out!” Bex and Ivy burst into my room. “Oh my God!” Bex runs over and pulls the items out.
“You made a list!” She squeals and hugs me.
“Okay, calm down. Anyway, I’m not going out.” He will be there with her.
“Yes, you fucking are! Don’t let him push you into hiding. That confirms his words. It’s been a month. Get on a slutty dress, now.” Ivy drags me up from the bed.
“Fine!” Walking over, I look through the clothes.
“No! You’re wearing this.” Bex holds out a dress, and my eyes widen.
“Is that even legal?” I stare at it; it’s short, and most of it is see–through.
“Very, get it on. Look, you don’t want him back. Screw him, not literally, as that’s not allowed! Show him what he’s missing. You might be a prude, but he can’t fuck for shit.”
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I laugh at her words.
“What? I’ve heard you two. He doesn’t hit the spot. Come on.” Ivy bounces around me.
“Okay, give me ten minutes.” I grab the dress and go to the bathroom to get ready. Walking out, they are waiting.
“Oh yeah, he never saw you in anything like this. Make him bleed.” I laugh at Bex. “That’s if he’s there, we’re going to Rainbow Horse.”
not often, but still, there’s a chance
That’s a gay bar. Jake does go,,
he is there, which makes me want to refuse.
The bar is full; Bex and Ivy have pretty much been pouring the shots. down my throat. I won’t complain, though, as I’m laughing and enjoying the night. Standing on the dance floor with them, my body moves to the music.
I’m glad I decided to come out. They were right I do feel better already. My body stops when I see him and her together. They are staring towards me and laughing.
“Don’t. You do not let him and that evil excuse of a woman run you out and stop having fun. Turn your back to them and dance.” Bex pulls me so I’m no longer facing them. It wouldn’t be as bad if he wasn’t talking about me and saying shit.
I
see Oliver dancing, and I smile toward him. “While dancing, move
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me closer to Oliver.” This will stop Jake from staring at me. Bex and
Ivy nod but look at me, confused. We dance, and as we do, they keep moving toward him.
Dancing beside him, he notices me and glances down.
“Ruby, didn’t expect to see you out tonight.” He smiles slightly and stops dancing.
“Am I not allowed to have fun like the rest of you?”
He chuckles at my words. “I didn’t think you ‘did‘ fun.”
“Because Jake said so, right?” He nods, and I continue to dance. “Indulge me, won’t you Oliver and go along with me?” He peers at me, confused. His eyes stay fixed on mine, hell am I really about to do this?
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