Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future novel Chapter 39

Lex's POV

| can't feel Kas. For the first time in millennia, our spirits are split from each other. | know I'm a warrior, but I'm scared. Kas and | have worked through our problems together forever. Like she said, forever in the past and forever in the future. Without her, I'm just a wolf. | don't know where | am or how I'm going to get back to her.

The last thing | remember, she was reaching out to the universe to find our mate. She didn't realize she reached too far. But | don't blame her, she did the right thing. We needed to find Saint and Bronx. We found them. By the time we got to Bronx, Saint was already edging to purgatory, moments from death. Kas was amazing. She kept reaching, even after we were stretched too far. | helped but | could feel the strain on her human spirit. | reached out to Saint and made a connection with him. | led him back to Bronx. | don't know if he made it all the way, | hope he did. Saint isn't here now. Neither is Kas or Bronx. I'm so scared. | pray my mother, the Moon Goddess, finds me and leads me back to Kas. I'm so empty without her.

| keep hearing sounds. They are so far away that I'm not sure if they are real or not, it's just a feeling.

"Hello?" my voice doesn't even have an echo. | need to focus. | need to find my way back to Kas and Saint and Bronx. | need to make sure they are alright.

Alright, Lex. Focus. Time to think our way back to Kas and our mate.

Saint's POV

This is dead. I've been here before but it's different this time. I'm disconnected from Bronx. | don't want to be scared, but | am. |

don't know how long I've been here but | don't think it matters. Like Kas said, forever in the past and forever in the future. As long as | can find my way back to Bronx, everything will be okay. 2

Everything is so still and peaceful in this place. It doesn't feel right. | feel like | should be angry but | don't feel anything. Murdered by a rogue. What a disgraceful way to go. | won't let that happen again. | learn from every experience. I'm a warrior. But | can't be a warrior if I'm dead. | have to find my way back from dead.

| miss my mate, Elexis. | guess that is a feeling, right? Missing someone | mean. | miss Bronx and Kas too. Bronx said we could make a pup with Kas. Dead means we can't do that.

| feel like | can hear sounds but it might be my imagination. Maybe | feel it, not hear it. | don't know, shit is so confusing right now. "Who's there?" | snarl. There's no way I'm gonna let anyone bait me. | need to figure out a way to get back. Get back to being alive. Get back to Bronx and Elexis and Kas. | tis my job to protect them.

It's probably not a good idea but let myself be led toward the sound, even if it is my imagination. It is something better than nothing. »

Bronx's POV

“Bronx? How did you get here? Are you okay, Sweetheart?” She gingerly rolls onto her side to face me and caresses my face. She struggles to smile through a grimace of pain. "I'm not exactly sure how | got here, but | think there was a helicopter involved?" | pause, not sure if | should tell her the details of what | remember. | figure she is going to find out eventually, so | go for it, "Graham Connors sabotaged me. He somehow had a substitute pilot assigned and hijacked my flight. The pilot must have let him hide before | boarded.”

“He kidnapped you?" she sounds concerned. “Yeah and he hurt me...like he used to hurt you," | say softly, "Il thought | was going to die, Kas. I-I think | did, but | felt you calling me back. | don't know how you did it but you saved me Kas.”

She smiles weakly and kisses my hands, “Do you want me to explain what | think happened?”

“Only if you want to. | don't want you to push yourself right now.”

She asks me to help her sit up. | carefully pull her so she is next to me.

"Let's draw a bath, Sweetheart. The tub is big enough for both of us. We can add some healing herbs and soak for a while. | can explain then.”

“Okay, Baby. Here, have some water," | hand her the cup. She sits up and takes some deep gulps while | continue, "Kas, | can't reach Saint. | feel like he is still there but too far away for me to contact. Is Lex with you?” She looks past me as she tries to talk to Lex, " Same. | feel like she is lost inside me," a frown comes over her face, making my heart clench, "Don't worry, Bronx, we'll figure this out."