Billionaire Alpha's 99 Deadly Games novel Chapter 148

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Chapter 148

When she nodded and gave me her order, I couldn’t help thinking of the damn dog image again. A giant puppy dog. That’s what she’d turned me into. If I were in my fur, I knew my tail would be happily wagging of its own accord, simply for having the pleasure of tending to my mate’s needs, even if she was adamant that she’d never actually be my mate. Still, I knew in my heart there’d never be another. Elise Westin was it for me and it bloody sucked.

While waiting for the food, I took a moment to shower and change, thankful to get out of the sweaty clothes from my workout. I tried to keep my mind clear. I couldn’t keep dwelling on the ups and downs of life with Elise. I had to just believe she’d come around.

Dinner was quiet, but companionable. She didn’t run off and hide. She stayed and ate her meal with me. When she finally retreated to the bedroom, the moment her last bite was gone, I tried not to take it personally. Laid out on the couch, alone in the dark, was the toughest part. It hurt so badly knowing my mate was in the next room and I couldn’t even close the gap to touch her, and she was just as restless as I was. I could hear her tossing and turning.

“Patrick? Are you still awake?” I heard a small, unsure voice.

“I am. What do you need?” I said, wanting to run to her side, and although I had to battle my wolf to stay put, I did just that.

“I don’t know. I can’t sleep and I hate that I upset you today.”

“It’s alright, love. I’m a big boy. While I’m not known for my patience, for you, I will try.”

She was silent for a while, but I could tell by her breathing she was still awake, just as I knew she

knew I was still awake.

“Patrick?”

“Yes, love?”

“Can you sleep in here again tonight?”

I didn’t wait to confirm her request. I was off that couch and pulling her into my arras faster than she could blink. She giggled nervously.

“I’m really not trying to send mixed signals, and this doesn’t change anything. This isn’t easy on ne

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either. I hate hurting you. It hurts me too, but it’s for the best. When the snow lifts and we leave here, I think we should try and keep our distance. It’s just easier that way.”

I tried to man up and not let her words affect me. On the one hand she was calling to me and needing my touch as much I needed hers, but on the other, her words stung, slicing a deep hole in my heart.

“I haven’t anywhere to go,” I whispered to her. The reality of my situation was terrifying. My father would not take me back into the clan, at least not yet. That much I was certain, but I couldn’t ask Kyle to continue sanctuary within Westin Pack if Elise was never going to accept me.

“It’s okay for now. I have friends in Alaska I’ve been wanting to visit. I’ll go away for a while so you can figure out what you want to do.”

I breathed her scent in deeply and kissed the top of her head. It was the first time my lips had ever touched her and it helped calm the wolf inside that was desperately trying to get out and take

control.