Genetic Ascension novel Chapter 705

Chapter 705: Myself

It wasn't even worth making the attempt. Even if he was lucky enough that everyone was stalled for that long, would he even be able to fight at the end of those seven hours?

Sylas didn't even bother to try and observe the Runes. What a joke. The standards of Rune Mastery were based on what the system was capable of drawing. How was he supposed to manipulate the perfect Runes of a barrier formed by the system?

There was no shortcut here.

The feelings that Sylas had pressed down began to bubble up again. He had run into a wall again.

Sylas closed his eyes, taking deep breaths.

Professor Fembroise pressed a hand against her chest, having her own small panic attack before she realized that she was safe for the moment.

And then she felt a swelling of anger. Sylas didn't even care about their previous relationship, directly attacking to kill her. He was just like everyone else in this world, only out for his own interests.

She grit her teeth. Her mouth opened as though she was about to say something, but that was when Sylas seemed to look right at her for the first time.

Her heart froze over.

There was something particularly dark about Sylas' gaze right now. It carried emotion he didn't usually have, a struggle deep within, but more importantly, a deep disgust with who she was.

If not for her, he wouldn't be in this situation. If she tempered her selfishness, if she picked a different path, if he didn't have to kill her.

Sylas slammed his eyes shut once again.

Those thoughts... they were unlike him.

He wasn't the type of person to blame others even when they wronged him. He preferred to take control of the situation himself. The basic assumption he made about the world was that everyone was out for themselves.

Even when he thought about Lucius, he felt that he had to kill the man eventually, but he didn't feel the same anger and rage someone who had had an attempt on their life should have.

But right now, he was feeling endlessly frustrated.

It had been bubbling up ever since he stepped foot into the Snail Queen's territory, and it was only growing worse with time. His Will was being chipped away at again and again, but... It was his fault.

That thought kept coming up again and again, drilling itself into his mind.

This Demonic Will was a part of him. It wasn't targeting him, nor was it an outsider trying to infiltrate his psyche. It was him and he was it.

The reason he was struggling so much was because he kept trying to reject it. He didn't want to accept the mirror it was holding up to his face even though he knew he should.

Even if a person knew they had self-destructive behaviors, would they be able to pivot on a dime and change everything about themselves on a whim?

'I'm weak... I don't want to be weak... I'm weak...'

The thoughts oscillated back and forth, and with every cycle, Sylas clenched his jaw harder and harder, to the point he began to feel like his own teeth might give way to the pressure.

It just kept coming back up. All of the usual tactics of discipline and self-control he had built up over his lifetime just felt entirely worthless right now. _{freёwebnoѵel.com}