Goodbye You Never Loved Me novel (Martha and Stefan) novel Chapter 158

Stefan's pupils contracted. He opened his mouth and wanted to answer but did not know what to say.
Was it called love?
Maybe, but he had ruined it himself.
And he, who had never truly loved someone else, had no right to talk of love.
"Stefan, I just think the old me stupid."
The old her was deeply hurt by him, but unwilling to go away.
Her love was not returned with love.
Fortunately, in the end, the baby was born safely, otherwise... She might have killed herself back then.
After her words, Stefan said, "What if... What if I insist on waiting for you to come back to me?" There was guilt, regret, remorse in Stefan's eyes, but Martha never looked at him again.
Martha smiled, and gently shook her head, "Life is about moving forward. There is no turning back for us."
They could never go back.
Late at night, in the Harrison Villa.
Stefan, lying in bed, was constantly replaying in his mind what Martha had said in the hospital.
She said that there was no turning back for them.
But he had finally gotten her back. How could he let her go?
For four years without her, he didn't even know how he get through.
He could not afford to lose her again.
In the middle of the night, his stomach began to ache and the pain made him sweat.
But he refused to take any medication, preferring to see the pain as punishment.
He kept thinking of all that had happened in the past...
Previously, he had often suffered from stomach pains.
Every time he drank, or when his diet was occasionally irregular because of work, he also had stomach pains. The pain was the same fitful.
It was Martha who took care of him.
But now, even if he died in pain, she would not even care.
Stefan's clenched hands were suddenly loosened. A bitter smile appeared on his lips.
He closed his eyes to feel the raw pain.
Memory flooded his mind... He recalled the first time he met Martha. She was only seven years old.
At that time, Hollie had not been taken back to the Doyle family. He and Martha met for the first time and made a good first impression on each other.
The reason they met was that he went to visit the Doyles with his father, who was still alive back then.
On their way, his father told him that the daughter of the Doyle family was a few years younger than him and that he should take care of her.
He nodded.
Then he met her.
Martha, the seven-year-old girl, dressed in a white floral dress, walked slowly down the stairs.
She wore her hair in a high ponytail and looked lovely. There seemed to be stars in her bright eyes.
She smiled and went up to him. Her first words to him were, "Big brother, you are so good-looking!"
Stefan was struck by her beauty the first time he saw her.
"Hi, Martha. I'm Stefan."
As soon as he said hello, Martha's lovely voice came, "Hi, Stefan."
That day, after the greeting, Martha took him by the hand and led him out into the garden. "
In the garden, she sat on a swing.
He stood behind her, swaying the swing.
She laughed heartily, and her laughter could be heard all over the garden.
He smiled as he looked at her, and was glad, too.
When she smiled, her white teeth would be showed, looking very cute.
Occasionally, he pushed the swing too lightly, and Martha would pout and say with dissatisfaction, "Stefan, higher!"
They had a great time as childhood playmates.
But everything changed after Hollie was taken in by the Doyle family.
Hollie used to cry and complain to him, which made him think that Martha was an arrogant, pampered girl.
"Stefan, Martha bullied me again. Maybe I shouldn't have been here!"
"I feel like a redundant person. Martha always scolds me and beat me..."
"No one really likes me here..."
As a boy, he hated to see girls cry.
So every time he saw Hollie cry, he felt sorry for her.
So he was always gentle with her when she was crying.
But it did not occur to him that his own life would be changed by it.
Then... He lost his real self.
Stefan, who liked Martha, vanished.