Healing my disabled husband novel Chapter 929

Chapter 929 Why did You have to Say such Serious Things

River and Averi returned to their room, where Averi was still gossiping. "What's up? Is Beata really in love?" she asked.
"I don't think so," River replied.
But his suspicion had taken root in his mind, and he planned to call everyone together and ask them about it.
Averi said, "I thought you found something out. Beata is very sensible, but she's still a young girl. Don't be too hard on her, or she might rebel and do something you can't imagine."
"I know," River said.
After thinking for a moment, he shared his thoughts with Averi.
Averi looked at him incredulously. "You suspect Beata and her bodyguard?"
She wasn't criticizing the bodyguard's job; she was just surprised that they were all much older than Beata. Even if Beata had such an idea, Averi didn't think they would reciprocate it.
Of course, age didn't matter when it came to love. But there was one important thing: Beata was underage.
Even if someone among them loved Beata romantically, they wouldn't dare pursue that direction while she was still a minor.
River knew his subordinates well; he knew their personalities well enough to know this wasn't possible.
"I may have been overthinking things," River admitted.
"What's wrong with you? You're not usually like this," Averi remarked.
"Maybe I'm getting old," River joked "and becoming more like a father."
Averi didn't respond immediately but instead looked at River before asking him, "Do you want children?"
River was taken aback for a moment before replying, "It doesn't matter much to me. I'm not exactly the type who gets close to kids."
He always kept Hayden family's three children at arm's length whenever he visited them with Averie because of how uncomfortable it made him feel around kids.
"If it weren't for your fondness of them," He continued, "I wouldn't even bother going near those kids."
"Oh," Avari said disappointedly, "I thought you liked children."
As soon as the words left her mouth though, River noticed a hint of disappointment in her eyes which made him look at her more closely than usual.
River said, "I don't mean to not have children."
"I know," Averi nodded and said, "I don't want to have children right now either."
River pulled Averi over and held her on his lap.
He asked, "Are you unhappy?"
Averi shook her head and said, "It's actually quite normal."
River said, "Of course I'll love the child you give birth to. But I really don't have any fondness for other people's kids."
In River's eyes, children were the scariest creatures in the world.
He didn't know when they would be happy or sad. They just suddenly appeared in life without warning. Some people weren't ready to take responsibility for a life yet.
He didn't think he was incapable of raising a child but he also wasn't going to force himself with one either.
Whether it was selfish jealousy or immaturity in this aspect of his life, this was his true thought.
Averi said, "Then it'll just be us two. Let nature take its course."
She had been thinking about trying for a baby lately but after seeing River's attitude, she lost interest all of a sudden.
River really didn't know how to explain this situation with Averi.
He could feel that she wasn't happy and felt down but he couldn't comfort her either.
The air fell into silence between them, which was unusual since they started dating each other
Averi didn't know how to change the atmosphere at that moment nor did she want to sort out her emotions right now
She had admit that she felt disappointed
She knew River wanted marriage with her but having kids shouldn't be used as an indicator whether someone loved her or not nor should it guarantee two people staying together forever
Averi also knew many things needed communication between both parties so they can understand what each other wanted.
But at this moment, she really wasn't in the mood for any of that.
Once her mood dropped down low, it was hard to bounce back up again.
Averi let River hold onto herself without moving while remaining silent.
River also felt uneasy.
He actually blamed himself. Why did he do this? Why did he say such serious things?
Well, since they would have kids sooner or later, why can't he follow Averi's wishes and make her happy?