Healing The Ruthless Alpha novel Chapter 23

"Asena broke the connection from my end so our mate bond is severed as far as I am concerned," I shrugged at Kade's words.

How dare this bastard open his mouth to tell me he loved me? This same man that bullied me throughout high school, laughing as his former goons would rip my books apart and shove me about? How dare this man who did nothing but cause me pain and humiliation say anything about loving me?

He bragged about keeping boys away from me, calling it 'shielding' when, in reality, he did it out of wickedness to keep me alone. Who was he to speak to me of love when everything he ever did to me in all my life was to show me how much he hated me?

I felt nothing but spite from him and I had spent many nights in bed crying because of him. He made me wonder what was wrong with me, why he hated me, why I was so unlovable. After my father, Kade was the next person in Silver Moon who could make me feel as if I was a waste of space whenever I breathed.

"Sihana Asena, I've wronged you from my naivety. Yes, I have no excuse for how I acted all these years and maybe, if you never got a second chance mate, if I was never confronted with the thought of losing you, I may have never accepted my feelings but I can't deny them." He took my hand in his. I tried to wrench it out, disgusted by the gesture, but he held on firmly.

I always knew Kade was a possessive little shit because even as a child, he used to rough up kids that dared to touch his toys. His possessiveness wasn't new but I never thought it would affect my life in such a huge way. The thought of 'losing' me made him accept his nonexistent love for me when I had never been his. Our mate bond was broken within five minutes of us finding it out so we never truly belonged to each other.

I felt a spark of anger ignite in my chest that spread throughout my body, warming me from inside. I was hurting too much for him to come to me with such nonsense. My wolf howled for Cahir and my heart did not beat right. Kade was the last thing I wanted to throw into the mix of my emotional turmoil.

"Let me tell you the truth, Kade Flint." I held his gaze without flinching even if it took a lot of willpower to hold the gaze of an Alpha as an Alpha's eyes show their strength. "If you had not rejected me, I would have rejected you." I spat. A knot in my chest loosened as his eyes widened in surprise. "I want nothing to do with you, whether as an Alpha or as a mate. Because of you, I suffered as no one should. You put me through hell every day and while I suffered, you laughed. You took pleasure in my pain and yet you think I would want to give you my forever?" I tasted something salty before I even realized tears were streaming down my face.

"You want me to believe you love me when all my life I have felt nothing but hatred from you? Kade, if you were sick and dying and I was overflowing with healing mana, I would rather allow the mana to consume me than use it on you." He sucked in a sharp breath that had me smirking. "That is how much I hate you, Kade Flint."

"Sia –" Tears glistened in his eyes but I felt they must be fake. This bastard must have picked up his father's tricks of pretending.

"Alpha Kade Flint, I have said it before and I will say it again, I, Omega Sihana Asena, daughter of your Beta, accept your rejection. I acknowledge our bond is broken now and forever." He doubled over, pushing his palm against his chest as if he felt the sting of a breaking bond.

Whatever he felt, I did not care.

I left his room with his teary eyes following me. On getting to the shithole I called my room, I allowed fresh tears to wash my face. My room was the same scattered mess I left behind while trying to run away after Kade stole all my savings. That same Kade now came to profess love to me.

Cahir –

"I miss you." I choked into my ratty pillow. "You're an asshole who abandoned me but I miss you and I don't know why. I don't want to." I sniffed into the empty room.

Cahir left me behind in this pack. He did not want to mate with me and I could not even fault him. He got a good deal from the Silver Moon pack in exchange for not mating with me. I would have only become a hindrance to him, a Luna who could not lead beside him. Even knowing this, trying to convince myself that we were better off without each other, I could not help the tears pouring down my face and soaking my pillow. I could not stop my wolf's howls and whimpers of grief and I could not stop my heart from longing for him.

I fell asleep in the early hours of the morning with a wet pillow and a weight crushing my heart. The next morning, my body woke me at the crack of dawn as it always did. I got only two hours of sleep but I never slept past five a.m in my life so even without an alarm, I was awake before most members of the pack.

Tears fell from my eyes a few minutes after I opened them. Wiping them, I got out of bed and gathered myself. I wouldn't wait for Maria to come screaming at me, I had to get busy to take my mind off my recent heartbreak.

There was a warrior stationed at my door when I walked out. He jumped to attention when he saw me and then he offered me a smile.