Healing The Ruthless Alpha novel Chapter 48

“Sihana.” His brows furrowed as he called my name. “What is it?”

“I hate how you treat me!” My lips quivered and my eyes stung. “It’s as if - it’s as if –“ I remembered how he reacted when I told him he treated me like shit. He didn’t want to be called out but this –

“First you sold me off with no explanation and now – So many things that you keep doing without thinking of how I’d feel or maybe – maybe you’re doing them to hurt me. I don’t even know anymore!”

“What would I gain from hurting you?” His cool voice asked and I shook my head. The tears were falling faster now, my emotions choking me as I tried to convey how I felt in words.

“That’s the t – thing. I can’t – I don’t know. I don’t understand. Why are you doing this – Why is it?” Why did he make me feel worthless? What did he gain from making me feel like shit?

“This keeps coming up so let me address it. I never sold you off. That was all a ruse to get Alpha Kade to agree to my terms. I told you to get ready to leave in two days, didn’t I?” He asked me in a slow voice which did nothing but make me feel even more foolish.

He spoke as if everything was obvious, as if he didn’t understand why I needed to even ask when the answer was staring me in the face but could I be faulted for not seeing the answer, for not understanding him when every of his move involving me felt like a smack on the face?

“It doesn’t – It explains nothing.” I wiped my face with my sleeve. “If that’s the truth, you would have told me. You made me seat there and listen to you trade me off for oil and now – now you make it seem as if I should have known.”

“I expected you to have figured it out.” I blinked at him. “As I said earlier, it was a ruse Alpha Kade fell for. You don’t need to concern yourself with the details of it but rest assured I was not selling you off. You’re here, aren’t you?”

Yes, more details I didn’t need to concern myself with. I shouldn’t concern myself with the running of his pack because it had all gone smoothly even before I came here but I still couldn’t concern myself with pack details that involved me?

“I – I want to concern myself with it!” The words burst from my lips with a scream. “You can’t keep – Keep treating me like –“ The word ‘shit’ dangled from my lips. “Cahir, if you don’t tell me what’s happening, I can’t know.” I took a deep and uneasy breath.

My emotions were getting the best of me and making it harder to think straight. I needed to be levelheaded, to understand where he was coming from as a part of me didn’t want to believe he did all these to hurt me.

“There’s no need for you to know the details.” He deadpanned. I felt my heart fall again but I held my emotions in check.

It took all my willpower not to break down again. I realized I wanted him to see me as someone he needed. It was my toxic desire to please people, to get them to like me, but I could not control it. I wanted him to see me as something more than a pathetic omega and if I kept crying and screaming, I wouldn’t be able to make that point.

“Why? Why can’t I know the details?” I asked. I watched his expression closely but it remained impassive.

“There’s no need for you to know,” he answered as if the answer was final and obvious.

“Do you – Do you think if I know the details of your pack, I would work against you?” I asked him. His jaw twitched but then he sighed.

“You can’t betray me.” I blinked at the confidence oozing off him. “If I go down, you’re going down with me so you wouldn’t try to sabotage me. Moreover, even if you tried, you cannot betray me. I won’t let you.” The possessiveness dripping from his words almost made me shiver.