Chapter 285 Feel Alive
Others simply couldn’t comprehend Kallum’s fear and unease.
Calista sighed, his gaze fixated on a certain spot. Then, she spoke in a quiet tone. “Do you know? Before, I always had this surreal feeling, like I was in a game, and it glitched, causing me to restart. Even though everything went smoothly after the restart, I still felt this sense of being adrift, as if… It was as if I had died, and this so–called restart was just a dream, nothing more than a beautiful illusion.”
The corners of her mouth quirked up slightly as she spoke in a serene tone.
Kallum furrowed his brows. He didn’t quite understand what Calista meant. What did she mean by restarting? And what is this beautiful dream she is talking about?
“Perhaps this analogy isn’t the best, but all you need to remember is this. I might have a masochistic disposition. I somehow feel that it’s only in moments of pain that I truly feel alive,” said Calista.
Kallum was taken aback, only to see an unusual gleam flickering in her radiant, star–like eyes.
“Can you imagine? I actually thought that pain was the only thing that was real. Isn’t that thought terrifying?”
Although she was smiling, Kallum inexplicably sensed a profound sadness from her. Subconsciously, he pulled her into his arms, furrowing his brows for a while before he finally asked in a very soft voice. “Can I know what exactly you’ve been through elsewhere?”
He had wanted to ask that question a long, long time ago, but he never did until that moment. Surprisingly, she replied to him with a smile, asserting that only pain was real.
That made Kallum suddenly realize the pain she had endured when he wasn’t around was unimaginably
immense!
What could possibly be more distressing for her than having a terminal illness? Kallum couldn’t think of anything.
Calista gave him a hazy glance. Her usually aloof and delicate face was slightly relaxed, carrying a subtle
smile.
She traced circles on his chest, whispering. “It’s all in the past now. Although it was terrifying, and there were many times I thought I wouldn’t make it, it’s all behind me now,”
Clearly, Kallum was not satisfied with the answer, yet Calista simply chuckled lightly and asked, “Do you know why I treat you well?”
Her words made Kallum unconsciously hold his breath.
“It’s because I feel safe around you, and you never hurt me.”
Kallum
pursed his lips, casting his gaze downward at her. “I’ve hurt you before.”
That was what he detested most about himself. In the past, he had unapologetically humiliated her time. and time again, but it seemed as though she had forgotten all about it.
12:32 Wed, 5 Jun EE.
Kallum was at a loss for words to describe his feelings. He felt a tickle in his throat and managed to croak out, “Is it just because I didn’t hurt you that you’re being so kind to me?”
What on earth had others done to her that was so terrifying? To the point that if someone didn’t hurt her, she would think well of them? Kallum couldn’t even begin to fathom it! What has gone wrong with my intelligence network? Why can’t I obtain any information on her?
“Of course, it’s not just that.” She lifted her gaze to meet Kallum’s eyes and narrowed her eyes as she smiled. “Have you forgotten how much I used to adore you? Whatever you do, as long as it doesn’t cross the line, I can accept it. My tolerance for you has always been greater than for anyone else.”
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