Her Volkovs #Book 1 novel Chapter 11

Belle's POV

Nikolai and I are spooning on his bed. He's resting his tattooed arm around my stomach just below my breasts. I can feel his warm breath on my nape causing small sparks of electric current down my spine.

"Hmmm.." He murmured. Nikolai inhales deep on my skin at the back of my right ear while planting small warm kisses. "I want you baby....."

I can feel his warm tongue touch my now vulnerable skin in between kisses. Slowly, I can feel my body flush. My abdomen is constricting like hell in response to every sensation that Nikolai is causing my body.

His hand explores my curvatures. From my thigh up to my breasts. He then slowly climbs on top of me while pushing my body to the bed to face him. He cups my left breast with his right hand and squeezed it gently. His beautiful green eyes are keenly observing every bit of my reaction. He parted his lips a little as his torso rubs against mine.

I inhaled deep as I try to catch my breath. At the back of my mind, I think I know what's going to happen next. Oh god, is this it? The reason in my head tells me to slow down and to stop but my heart is telling me otherwise.

While his eyes are still glued to me, I can feel his hand slowly reaching down my red lace underwear. It is really happening. Am I going to let go of the one thing I have been holding on to my whole life for this night and to this marvel of a man?

"Stop. Please. I'm not ready." The tiny voice of reason inside my head won over my heart.

"I'm sorry Nikolai."

"Look at me. You don't have to say sorry." Nikolai said as he tries to remove my hands off of my face. All the more that feel guilty right now because of his reaction. Part of me wishes he did not have to be this understanding. Part of me wants him to get mad at me for leading him to this.

"Baby please, I can't stand seeing you like this. I am sorry. Just look me in the eyes I'm begging you." I feel like my heart is being slowly crushed hearing Nikolai plead to me like this.

I can't do it. I don't want to see his face and I don't want him to see me like this. This is all my fault! I shouldn't have allowed the situation to come to this point. I should have been clear to him about this.

Next thing I know, Nikolai removed himself off of me and walked away from the bed.

"FUCK!" Nikolai yelled and banged the door on his way out.

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My eyes flicker from the light illuminating through the curtains. As I attempt to open my eyes wider, I see a familiar silhouette. It's Nikolai, and he's sitting in the brown leather chair next to the windows.

I sat on Nikolai's lap while placing my feet on his right thigh. "Where did you go last night Nikolai?" I said as I rest my head on his shoulder.

"I gave you the chance to leave. Why are you still here?"

"Did you want me to leave?"

He did not answer. Instead, he pulled me even closer to him by wrapping his arm around my waist and pressing my body against his.

"I'm sorry Nikolai."

"Why are you apologizing? It's not your fault. What happened last night got the best of me. And I thought you were gonna leave me."

I removed my head from his shoulder and looked at him in his eyes. Nikolai is looking down the floor. His hair is disheveled and he looks like he wasn't able to sleep at all. He's blaming himself for what happened when in fact it was me who lead him to do that last night.

"I would never leave you. It's going to be the both of us, from here on." I said as I reach for his cheek to face me.

"You have no idea what you're talking about."