She wasn’t holding out for love anymore. She didn’t believe she could handle it, and she definitely didn’t think she’d have anything more with Casper.
“Juan, I don’t have the strength to love anymore, and I sure don’t have the courage to love the same person again. He’s got his life, and I just want to quietly live out mine.”
Juan understood. Eliza had always been more sensitive than others, even as a kid. Later, when she and Nova switched places, the parents who had been by her side for over a decade suddenly stopped loving her. Back then, she was like a wounded deer, constantly licking her wounds.
Casper was the lifeline she clung to. But no one could have guessed he'd drag her into an even deeper abyss.
Juan couldn’t deny he felt for her, but people had to look forward. Staying in the dark would never bring happiness.
“I just hope you don’t always see yourself as being against him. Even if there’s no future with him, you need to learn to let go.”
Eliza took a deep breath and slowly exhaled. She was learning to let go, but some things weren’t that easy to forget.
“Easier said than done.”
“Take your time.” He watched her melancholic profile and smiled gently.
Juan dropped Eliza off at her apartment building, ready to leave.
“Get some rest. I’ll come pick you up tomorrow,” he said.
Eliza wasn’t thrilled about attending the reunion party set up to welcome Juan back. “Forget it, I won’t go. It’s been too many years; it’ll be awkward.”
“It’s all arranged. Not showing up wouldn’t be right. Besides, with me there, what’s there to feel awkward about?” Juan wanted Eliza to get out more. She’d been living too bottled up, “Alright, I’m off then.”
Eliza watched Juan’s car drive away. Turning around, she was startled to see a man in front of her.
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