I Am The Luna (Moonlight Muse) novel Chapter 103

25. A Broken Heart ZAIA. or I Am The Luna Chapter 103 By Moonlight Muse

Please say this is a lie…

His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.

Sebastian left me.

Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.

It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.

I cannot breathe.

Sebastian…

“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.

Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?

I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?

Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.

Mom… Dad… Sebastian…

In the end, I failed. Just the way I am failing Sia and my people…

Why is the goddess doing this to us?

“You chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself. I feel so alone… I am alone…

I was the wrong person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my best, but I’m not doing enough…

Why did you make us for one another if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him again? Why did I unwrap my damaged heart for him?

He was my strength… he was the one who I had learned to forgive and not only did I fall for him again; I fell for him all over again.

I don’t want to feel this pain…

I clamp my hands over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart, hurting so badly.

“Red…” Strong arms wrap around me, pulling me against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears running down my cheeks. “I can’t tired…” cope anymore. I’m tired, I’m so

“It’s going to be ok. We’re going to figure this out…”

How?

So many times I felt like he was saying goodbye…

Last night… he was saying goodbye, wasn’t he?

Mom… she’s gone too.

Dad…

I grip my head as it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and my eyes blaze with my emotions.

“Zaia! Zaia, look at me!”

Someone forces my head to the right, and I think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead through my tears. One last try… because I didn’t give Mom a chance…

‘SEBASTIAN! If you can hear me, please please listen!’

I’m met with nothing but a wall and I cry out in desperation.

“Zaia…” Atticus’s voice fades away as my vision begins to spin and then, everything becomes blissfully dark…

Night has fallen and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it. Betrayed, yet unable to comprehend it.

How do I recover?

I hate showing the kids how I feel, but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I hugged and kissed my babies, breaking into tears.

They are my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how do I tell them their dad has left them once again?

In the darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt, sorrow, pain, betrayal…

And despite the storm within me, the only thing I know is, I failed. Failed everyone and everything…

Sebastian is truly gone.

Mom is dead.