I will never be yours (Kian and Selena) novel Chapter 31

Selena pov

Emma takes a sip of her coffee before she answers my question.

” I don't blame my love for finding his mate and the bond pulling him away from me. I just wished he could have been in our daughter's life. Things would have been different if he was still in our life somehow. But then I wouldn’t have met you and had this amazing life we have now. When it comes to the rapes I blocked my mind out from what was happening to my body. They could take my body but not me, no one could touch me. My body carries the scars of what happened both the rapes and the fights. When I se the big scars on my face I am reminded of where I came from and what I have endured it makes me stronger. I remember all the love I have felt before in the arms of men and I know not all of them are bad. There is only one thing I am scared of”

” What is it?” I have a hard time believing there could be anything that she could be scared of after everything she have to endure

” Finding my mate,” she says and takes a bite of her cake. I can't understand why that would be a problem.

” Why?” I ask and sip on my coffee

” A mate should love you no matter what, we are made to fit each other like two pieces of a puzzle. What will happen when my mate sees me, sees all my scars? Will he get angry, can he handle it or would he be filled with rage because someone hurt me and frighten Ella and me? And me already having a child, would he accept her? A mate often gets possessive of its mate, I can’t have that. My mate needs to be kind and calm. That scares me more than anything, I can’t have anyone ever hurt my daughter again.”

I can se where she comes from and It hurts me what they had to endure. I wish things could be different for her. She deserves to be happy.

” I promise to always protect this pack and with all the life in me, I will make sure you are safe. No one is ever going to hurt you or Ella again!” I say and take her hand in mine. She turns her head and looks at me.

” I know you will Selena but I just hope I never find my mate. It will be easier that way” she says and look sad at me, it hurts hearing her say it.

After that we just sit in silence and drinking coffee, thinking about everything she said. I couldn’t bare it if any one of them got hurt again. They are my family and I care about them more than my own life.

” I have to get back to work, I come and find you later,” I tell her and get up from my seat. Heading inside I walk over to the kitchen and place my dishes down before I walk over to my office again. At this point, I can't fall behind on work.

When I sit down behind my computer there are a few new emails and I open them from the company first.