I Won't Go Back To My Family Who Abandon Me novel Chapter 98

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‘Because I’m good at it…’

If she asked the people around her, like Enoch, Elle and Ian, what they were good at, they would have an answer right away, but she couldn’t think of anything she was good at.

‘I’m sure I’m good at something too.’

However, she couldn’t find it alone, so she eventually decided to ask for help from someone else.

“What are you good at?”

“Yes, or any strengths.”

She decided to ask Keena, who visited regularly even though she was always busy. Keena seemed to agonize over it for a while, then gave a more casual answer than she expected.

“You’re nice?”

“….”

Obviously, Leticia should thank her for saying something nice, but she didn’t feel happy about it at all.

“I don’t think being nice is a good thing.”

Leticia drooped her shoulders with a sullen face. Keena turned her head to look at her.

“Why?”

“Well…”

Leticia sighed in the middle of speaking.

She always thought she should live as a good person. She’d lived for her family, and believed that one day she’d be happy. However, all that came back was the neglect, and disregard of her family.

The reality was that her family never forced her to sacrifice herself. She decided to allow herself to be slowly eaten away.

“Leticia.”

Keena was somehow able to read what she was thinking, and said Leticia’s name in a firm voice.

“It may seem that you were hurt and lost the most, but in reality the people who hurt you have lost more.”

“Keena…”

“Because they threw you away.”

Keena continued to speak, more seriously than ever.

“Being nice is neither a fault, nor a weakness. It’s just that some people are stupid, and don’t recognize your good points.”

“….”

“You did a great job, and they ignored you. You can ignore them in the same way. There’s nothing hard to think about.”

After saying that, Keena lightly shrugged her shoulders. It was an attitude that said she was wondering why Leticia was so concerned over an easy problem.

“So, don’t think of your strengths as a disadvantage because of them.”

At Keena’s sincere words, Leticia felt choked up.

“Thank you, I feel much better. Thank you.”

“Don’t mention it.”

Kiena said it was obvious, and drank her tea. As Leticia watched her, a thought occurred to her.

“Is there anything you want to do now?”

“No?”

“Why?”

“Because there’s nothing I want to do.”

“Then aren’t you nervous?”

Leticia felt that she was stuck in place for a long time. Enoch, Ian, and Elle quietly kept walking forward in search of their own paths, while she was still wandering because she couldn’t find what she really wanted to do.

At first, she consoled herself by saying that it was okay, but the longer she wandered, the harder it became to hide her frustration.

Keena just looked at Leticia as if she didn’t understand.

“There might be nothing you want to do, or maybe it will happen later.”

Leticia gasped when she acted like it was all insignificant. It was surprising, and amazing that she could think that way.

Keena was watching Leticia, and then asked.

“Then what do you want to do?”

“Actually, I don’t know. I’m just…”

Leticia hadn’t expected to be asked this question, hesitated for a while, and then slowly spoke up.

“I don’t want others to live like I used to.”

She knew well that the answer didn’t fit the question, but it was the best answer she could give right now.

Leticia kept speaking before Keena could ask what it meant to live like her.

“I hope they’ll cherish themselves, and others.”

“Then deliver your heart.”

“How?”

“You’ve already done it.”

Leticia blinked her blue eyes because she couldn’t figure out what she meant. Keena frowned slightly in frustration.

“Like the lucky cookies you make, and seemed to have forgotten about.”

Keena stopped talking for a while, gave a small sigh, then continued to speak.

“Your ability is luck. Your existence itself is luck.”

“Ah…”

“So be confident.”

Leticia burst into laughter, she’d forgotten about it because she wasn’t aware of her ability for such a long time.

“But I don’t know how to start.”

“There’s nothing grandiose about it. Thinking about it now is also a starting point.”

Keena slowly got up from her seat, and lightly tapped Leticia’s cheek with her fingertip before saying.

“You’re good at everything, but sometimes you wimp out before you even start.”

“….”

“Nothing good happens if you don’t even start.”

It was a friendly voice, but it sank heavily into her heart.

When Leticia nodded slowly, Keena smiled in satisfaction, and left first after saying she’d see her again soon. Leticia was left alone, and muttered what Keena had said.

“If you don’t even start…”

Nothing happens.

Somehow the words stuck in her heart, and lingered for a long time.

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“I heard you’re interested in charity parties these days.”

As soon as she arrived at the tea party that Melony was throwing for the first time in a long time, the young lady and the other young women were interested in what Leticia had been doing lately. At first she didn’t like this kind of attention, but now that she was used to it, she was able to smile naturally.

“Yes, it reminds me of my childhood, so I really want to participate.”

“You’re doing a good job.”

“That’s right. There are rumors that the charity parties involving Miss Aster will end successfully.”

Upon hearing that rumor for the first time, Leticia opened her eyes wide for a moment, then sighed with relief.

At the time she attended the party, there wasn’t anyone there, and she was worried about how well it would turn out. However, when she asked around, it seemed that people arbitrarily decided to donate later on.

It took a while to ask each of them how they’ve been, and before she knew it, Melony brought up a different topic.

“Right, did you hear the news?”

“What news?”

“The 4th volume of ‘The Knight and I’ came out!”

“Oh, really?”