Ice and Fire novel Chapter 423

"Well? Here I am. SO just spit out what you wanted to talk about." Jackson wasn't ready to listen, even if he had implied to Stephen he was.

"It is difficult to sit here together like this, and just chat, isn't it." said Stephen. He tried recalling if they ever had, and he could only conjure up vague memories. But, he didn't think they had ever chatted like this before.

"What the hell is it you want to say?" Jackson's patience was already being sorely tested.

Stephen stared out of the window as he thought, and said lightly, "Do you think, if things hadn't happened the way they did, all those years ago, that we could have carried on a comfortable conversation with each other?"

"Stephen!" Jackson snapped in a warning tone. He was becoming more puzzled by the minute. He couldn't understand what Stephen wanted to talk about.

"Actually, you know, I never blamed you. Even though the events that year nearly destroyed me, I didn't blame you, " Stephen said bluntly while he watched the scenery outside the window. "Because, I always knew my parents deserved what they got. No one was to blame for it."

Jackson's agitation lessened, and he calmed down as he listened to Stephen's confession. A deafening silence fell on the private room.

Stephen turned his head slowly and looked at Jackson.

"I was jealous of you. You lived such a comfortable life while I had to scrape and work hard just to eke out a living. No matter what I wanted, I needed work so much harder, " explained Stephen, in a tone that bespoke of depression. Stephen had never gotten the opportunity to tell Jackson how he really felt; he did now, though, it might be his last chance.

"That year....I didn't put much thought into things. All I wanted to do was save Sally's life. It was the only goal I had, " said Jackson, his voice was soft and low as he recalled the distant events so vividly. He knew, no matter how long he lived, he would never forget the details.

"So, you didn't consider what would happen to me at all. In order to save Sally, you'd let me become an orphan, " said Stephen flatly.

Jackson looked into Stephen's eyes and felt a pain gripping his heart. He had to admit he was too impulsive that year. He hadn't thought of about the An Family's plight until Sally was safe. When Jackson went back to find Stephen, he'd left the city with some relatives.

"Stephen? What do you want from me? An apology?" asked a slight vexed Jackson. He hadn't apologized to anyone in his life, except his closest loved ones, like Cherry.

"I never expected you to, " Stephen said, "If you do want to say sorry to anyone, say it to Mond."

Jackson didn't know what to say to Stephen.

Stephen took some documents from his briefcase and laid them out on the table.