If only he loved me too novel Chapter 6

The moment the words left his mouth I froze, I was ready for this, I'm sure I was. but to hear it directly from his mouth was more painful and brutal than my guess. I didn't say a peep, nor did I argue, I waited for him to finish this torture for once and for all.

"But not today," he said and I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding "Today is papa and mamma's wedding anniversary and they are throwing a charity event as always, be their daughter-in-law for the last time, and then we are done" with that he threw the apron on the floor and stormed out of the kitchen.

he slammed the door out his way and the tires of his car screeched as he drove off, that's... that's when I lost my footing and fell on the marble floor. I didn't scream, I didn't cry, I broke down. 

Do you remember you're first heartbreak? people say that first love always hurt, they leave a deep scar out their way and ruin it for whoever will be next. yeah, That. but just multiply it with 100 and that is the feeling I'm feeling right now, total vulnerability 

I know that I got what I wanted but why the hell was I not relieved or happy? why do I feel empty? knowing he was never there, to begin with.

Silent tears fell out of my eyes, I didn't cry. no, my heart did.

Later that day I found Oliver in my office, I sighed 'this is the last thing I need right now'. I opened my office door and strolled in and sat on my chair.

"When did you leave?" I asked him and he smiled sheepishly 

"I left last night, I didn't know if he wanted me there," he said with a sad smile and I know the feeling.

"You could have informed me, I was worried," I said and opened my laptop, looking at what I was supposed to do today.

"Sorry," he said "never mind that, what about the event tonight? you still on?" he said to me like a child waiting to go to the carnival. can't believe this guy is older than me by 4  years.

"Yeah," I said and gave him a fake smile/ happy smile.

"Great," he said but kept moving his eyes "good because I invited Pete, " I looked at him unable to respond, Pete is Oliver's long-term boyfriend and if he is inviting him then it only means one thing.

"You sure about it?" I asked him "Pete doesn't like being your secret" 

"I'm... I'm no longer keeping him a secret" he took in a deep breath "I'm ready to come out" and exhaled. I smiled at him genuinely this time. 

"That's great, I'm happy for you," I smiled and held his hand in mine "And if things went south I will always be there for you, you hear me?" he smiled relaxed, and stood up to hug me