I’m scared more than anyone else. If I can’t remember anyone or lose the ability to take care of myself one day, I might as well die early. At least in his memory, he won’t remember me as a lunatic.
Right then, Ashton put his arms around me and tightened it. His voice was as gentle as always, “No, Scarlett, I will be with you. I will not let Summer leave you. No matter what, we will be fine.”
These words sounded like he was comforting himself rather than me. It appeared that I had been a burden to him.
Looking up at him, I ran into his boundless eyes, my heart aching with each passing second. “Wrong, I was wrong from the beginning. I should have never married you. No matter what I tried, it is impossible to let go of the death of Macy and the child. You can get rid of Rebecca, but I cannot get rid of Marcus. What you owed Rebecca was a promise, and I owed Marcus a life. Unless I die, I can’t pay it off. So Ashton… let’s… break up.”
If I end up crazy one day, I know he will take care of me and still be with me. But if he devoted the rest of his life loving and caring for a lunatic, it would ruin him. Sally was right. He deserves better.
I didn’t know if it was my imagination running wild or it was real. But I swore, at that moment, Ashton’s eyes were bloodshot as if they were stabbed by thousands of glass shards. In fact, it looked like he was in great pain.
His handsome eyebrows narrowed to hide his agony, and he laughed at himself. “Scarlett, it’s not you. It’s me. You’re right. I can cut loose from Rebecca’s debt, the Fullers’ involvement, and all the responsibility… all except you.”
I pursed my lips with my jaws tightly clenched. At that moment, it was so hard to breathe that I couldn’t even say a single word.
There were many ways to choose in love, but he chose the most difficult one.
That night, I went to sleep like usual. At one point, I could feel his soft lips against my cheeks. His sultry voice whispered beside my ears. “Scarlett, let us go to R Province and never come back again.”
This sentence struck me like a dream as I really missed those days back in R Province.
The next day, K city was already getting colder. Ashton didn’t go to the office that morning as I could still feel his slender body wrapping around me, giving me a complete sense of security.
I then woke up from my dream, my body comfortably warm albeit the cool weather.
Right at that moment, I could feel his heartbeat through the back of my shirt, beating in a sturdy and rhythmic pattern.
If I could stop time, I could live in this moment forever. But both of us understood what we had to face after we left this bed.
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