Judas kiss novel Chapter 64

Alfredo walked into the room quietly.

"I know you're not asleep Mila." He said softly seating on his side of the bed, for goodness sake it had been two months already. She needed to start eating and being productive. They couldn't live like this forever. They needed to decide what they needed to do. So many times Mila wanted to call Della but she always went against it and ended up switching her phone off and cutting herself off from the world. She was embarrassed by how she had ended their friendship just like that.

"I don't want to keep it." She said in a very very low voice but Alfredo managed to hear through the cracks of her voice. She couldn't even face him as she said this. She felt guilty, embarrassment and anger all at the same time.

"I understand you said you didn't love me and that it was all just lust but.." Alfredo felt broken just remembering how she had let him know her exact feelings when they got into an arguement. "Please keep it.." He almost sounded as if he was pleading. If he said he did not want this child then that would have made him a compulsive liar.

"No... i have made up my mind." Mila said out of words.

"I will pay you whatever amount you want, you can act as a surrogate. Once the baby is born you won't ever have to see them again. I won't bother you, I will leave you alone and i will try my best to forget about you and to stop loving you.. which is highly impossible but for our... i mean my child i will." Alfredo said trying his level best to get Mila to agree. It had been nine weeks already and soon she would start to show. In fact her little bump had developed. The doctor had told them to make their choice as soon as possible before it became all too complicated and hard to do.

"I don't want you to raise our child, Alfredo. Don't you get it? I'm scared for the life i am bringing my child into. The best option would be adoption but i can't.. It's best we terminate it now." She said crying into her pillow. She was tired of crying especially about this situation. She had no idea where she went wrong.. she was always always on the pill. Mila was confused, so many men she had one night stands with nothing ever occured then she sleeps with Alfredo while still on the pill and she gets pregnant. Was this some sort of punishment? She didn't understand any of this.

"It's my body.. my decision." She tried to justify herself but deep down she knew she was wrong and felt so much guilt.

"I don't know why you're making an innocent child suffer because of me. I respect your decision but you hate me that much that you can't think of caring my child?"

It hurt Alfredo so much to think about.

Mila stayed silent.

They both stayed silent.