"I want to go back, James," said Angela as her voice couldn't help trembling.
James took her hand and said, "Do you think it will be helpful if you go back now? If one wants to suicide, there are plenty of ways, including jumping off the building, drinking poison and slashing the wrist...if one really wants to die, no one can stop her. You should know it better than me."
So Angela did.
She knew better than anyone the feeling of having nothing left to live for.
"But I still want to go back!" said Angela.
She feared that she would be regret for not going back now.
"I've invited a well-known psychologist and he'll be here this afternoon. Take it easy. It's just a few hours," said James.
Angela kept silent.
"You have seen that your mom is playing happily with Taotao," said James as he gently stroked her back, "when you came out. You are just too sensitive."
After a hesitation, Angela said, "I'll go back now and go out with you tomorrow."
Angela and James went back to the house of the Chante family.
When they came back, Angela's mom Elva was playing with the kid and asked with a surprise, "What's wrong? Why do you come back?"
"Mom, Angela worries about you," said Luna, "as you just had a quarrel with Mrs. Brown and looked upset."
Elva sighed, "I just think that I have been too indecisive before. While I feared to hurt everyone, everyone was hurt in the end."
"You can't let everyone like you. So you don't need to be too hard on yourself," said Angela softly as she came to sit next to Elva.
While her eyes were still red, Elva looked in a good mood and said with a smile, "Thank you for your comfort, but I've got over it."
"Yes, I can prove it," said Luna while holding the kid, "as Mom has told me that she should have broken with Mrs. Brown early as Mrs. Brown is a woman with loose morals."
"Did Mom really say that?" suspected Angela as it didn't look like Elva's style.
"Yes, I did," sighed Elva, "as I suddenly realized that our contact was a mistake."
After they chatted for a while, Angela was still worried and said euphemistically, "Mom, James knows a friend who likes things like flower arrangements too and he's right here. Why not talk with him?"
"Really? He's actually a psychologist, right?" said Elva as she ate a piece of fruit and looked lovingly at Angela.
With her heart skipping a beat, Angela feared that Elva would be disgusted with contacting with a psychologist as Dr. Roland had told her.
"As he is here, why not invite him to our house? And you can rest assured," said Elva on her own.
Hearing that, Angela was relieved.
At around 1:30 in the afternoon, the psychologist came. Fearing that Elva would resist staying with him, he just sat and chatted with everyone in the living room in the beginning.
Later, it was Elva who took the initiative to ask him to talk with her alone and they went upstairs.
They talked for about one and half an hour, during which Angela glanced upstairs for 150 times and drank ten cups of tea.
Angela had complicated feelings about Elva as she respected, loved, sympathized and resented Elva. But anyway, Angela didn't want anything to happen to Elva.
James went out this afternoon, so Luna was accompanying Angela in the living room.
"Angela, you are too nervous!" said Luna in puzzlement, "This isn't the first day Mom has behaved like this and she looked in a good mood today. How are you still so worried?"
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