Lily and James (werewolf novel) novel Chapter 17

Chapter 0017

(Lily POV)

As I walked back to the packhouse after the fight with James, Rose was silent. That left me alone with

my own thoughts and feelings, which I appreciated. I needed time to process.

I do not understand what just happened, much less why it happened, and I definitely do not know how to

feel about the whole thing.

On one hand, my heart feels broken. Shattered, really.

Despite James‘ comments to the contrary, I have never wanted or expected to be mated to him. In fact,

if

you had asked me yesterday to give you a list of ten males that I would be happy to be mated to, James

would not have been on the list. Heck, he probably would not have made a list of twenty males either.

At the same time, I had always dreamed of being with my mate, and James was….

Uuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhh.

him?

I have fantasized about finding my mate since I was young, perhaps as early as 8 or 9 years old. I think all

werewolves do, do they not? At least the females?

For me, I thought finding my mate would mean finding someone who would love me, and who would

treat me as though I was important. I longed for that… especially after my world was flipped upside down

after Stephanie died.

Until this morning, I could only imagine what it would feel like to be loved and appreciated by a mate.

Now, thanks to the short encounter with James, it is no longer something that I have to imagine. I now

know very well what it feels like to be looked at with love, and what it feels like to be treated as though you are important and valuable.