Lily and James (werewolf novel) novel Chapter 75

Chapter 0075 (James POV)

After the interaction with Lily at the luau, I could not sleep.

Instead, I tossed and turned, repeatedly replaying Lily’s words and going through what had happened… not just last night, but for the past six years.

I originally told myself that the only reason that I wanted to see Lily was so that I could get more answers.

I even fought with Luke about the purpose of this trip, insisting that getting answers was all that this trip was for.

But now?

Now I am not so sure.

My mind and my heart are filled with the chaos of four very strong and somewhat conflicting emotions, and I do not know what to do about any of them.

The first emotion is, not surprisingly, confusion, Everything that I have known and believed for the past.

26 years of my life seems to have burst into smoke.

Now, nothing that I have relied on seems stable or true.

Heck, at this point, I half–wonder if “James” is even my real name.

The second emotion is guilt.

For six years, I punished Lily for something that she did not do.

I actively took steps to ensure that she suffered, and I actively took steps to ensure that others in the pack tortured her as well.

And, given what I saw in her medical file, Lily not only suffered… she suffered to the extreme.

The third is regret.

I made so many mistakes when it comes to Lily.

When she told me last night that she had forgotten what my voice sounded like when it was not saying something angry, hateful, or vile, it broke my heart.

My mate my Goddess–chosen mate- had forgotten what my normal voice sounds like.

The fourth is the most surprising to me, and perhaps the most difficult to deal with: desire.

I want Lily back.