Love Began with the First Meeting novel Chapter 815

"Although I have been mean to you, you always seek a sense of safety from me," he sighed. With her chin between his thumb and index finger, he made her look straight into his eyes and asked,"Mol, every time you sought that sense of safety from me, had you thought of the possibility that I was the greatest danger to you?"

Tears spilled over her reddened eyes. She shook her head slightly as a reply to Brian's question. She sniffed and pursed her lips tightly, letting the tears slide across her cheeks and reach the corners of her mouth. The salty taste spread in her mouth.

"I had said that it would only be a game, but I had fallen into it long ago. Even though I couldn't admit it at the time, when you made your silent confession to me in the snow, I was so bloody confused," Brian said, with a frown. "While both you and I stayed confused, Eric had seen through everything early in the game. If I could have seen through it earlier too, perhaps things would not have gone this way and all these unfortunate things would not have happened, right?" He paused and looked at her tear-stained face.

"Mol, perhaps you have no idea about this... At that time in the Phoenix Mountain, when I found that you were unwilling to exchange my life for Daniel's, I had decided that I wouldn't love anybody other than you in my lifetime." Brian's voice contained a deep feeling of grief. During that fatal incident in the Phoenix Mountain, he had figured out thoroughly what he wanted. He had decided to give up Becky and to love nobody except Molly.

Hearing his long explanation, her eyes flooded. Every scene that had happened between them in the past had pricked her heart like thorns when she had left A City at that time. Now as Brian explained how he had felt at the time, she felt her heart ache.

"I hoped you would never leave, but you left."

"Bri..." she called his name, sobbing.

Brian heaved a sigh and continued,"After you left, I thought of giving up on each other, but as fate would have it, we met again. And when we met after those four years, you had a husband and a son." He scoffed and raised his fingertips to wipe the tears off Molly's cheeks gently. He went on,"It was not until then that I realized how much a man could get jealous of another man. If a man didn't get jealous when he saw his lover with another man, it only means that he never loved her or cared enough for her. But I was enraged. I was jealous of him."

Molly kept shedding tears. She tried to open her mouth and say something now and then, but she could not utter a word.

"I told myself that even if it was a mistake for me to love you, I would rather repeat that mistake than let you go," Brian said. His eyebrows were knotted tightly together because of the painful memory. And there was grief in his face and it could be seen so clearly from his expression, which was totally different from his usual poker face. "However, in the end I realized that I was wrong." His voice turned hoarse, and he sounded heartbroken,"I realized that if being with me meant bringing harm to you, then I would rather let you go, even though I didn't want to at all."

"Bri...Bri..." Molly cried and shouted in a hoarse voice. She wanted to stop him. She didn't need to hear his explanation anymore. It was enough for her to know that he still loved her. Compared to what he had gone through, her sufferings in the past two years were really nothing at all. They were of no significance.

Holding Molly's face in both his hands, Brian wiped her uncontrollable tears with his fingertips continuously. He said,"I didn't know how to give you the life and the happiness that you desired, so I could do nothing but let you go. Mol, why did you come back?"

"Because I love you!" Molly yelled in a hoarse voice, using all her remaining strength. "Bri, I love you! I love you! I have loved you all this time, ever since the time you had rescued me from the snowy ground, since you revealed your tenderness towards me. Ever since you started showing care for me every now and then, I have loved you. I confessed to you in the snow, I wanted you to build snowmen with me... Everything I did was because I loved you."

Her sight had been blurred by tears and her voice had become hoarse, but she was too excited. She wanted to explain everything,"At the time, the only reason why I wanted to leave was because I felt that you didn't love me and that I could never stand by your side. Do you understand now?"