She thought that the box would be filled with Leigh’s toys or something, but to her surprise, there was a delicate notebook in it.
What Leigh wrote on that notebook was his last words.
“Mommy, I know that I’m really sick and will die one day, but I have so much that I want to say to you, so I’ll just write it all down on this notebook.”
“Mom, the happiest thing in my life is that I got to be your son. You’re the best mommy in this world.”
“Mommy, I’m sorry that I often got sick and I know that you’ve suffered a lot because of me. I’m so sorry.”
“Mommy, I know that I’m a burden to you, but I still want to be your baby if there is a next life.”
“I’ll be a healthy kid in another lifetime and be a little man. I will get super strong and protect you.”
Actually, a normal three-year-old seldom can learn to write and read.
But Leigh was born smart and had a great teacher, Rufus. He can already read some simple characters when he was little and self-learned more after they left the dungeon.
If there was character that he can’t write, he will just replace it with phonetic transcription.
Leigh wrote a lot on this notebook. He told Amelia that she should eat well and take care of herself. He sounded like a little man.
But what Leigh repeated the most was that Amelia should stop loving that bad man.
Amelia knew that Leigh was referring to Lawrence.
“Mommy, that bad man doesn’t deserve your love and your tears. He’s not worth it.”
“Mommy, just forget that bad man. My mom is the greatest woman on earth and can definitely find the best man.”
“Mommy, when you find your true happiness, remember to bring my new daddy to see me. I have to make sure that he is the right guy for you.”
“Mommy, I can only be rest assured when you forget that bad man and become happy.”
“Mommy, you must be happy!”
Holding Leigh’s notebook in her hand, Amelia’s eyes started welling up. Her Leigh really wanted her to be happy!
She probably didn’t have much time left, but she would definitely not let Leigh down as long as she was alive. She got to be happy!
Then when she met Leigh one day, she can proudly tell him that mommy had delivered her promise.
As for her love for Lawrence…
Well, she seemed to have already stopped loving him that much.
Once upon a time, she foolishly thought that Lawrence was her true and only love, but she had learned that there was no such thing as only love in this world after being hurt and doubted again and again.
Lawrence, I didn’t love you anymore. I won’t love you and think about you anymore even I only got one day to live.
Just when Amelia was about to close Leigh’s notebook, she suddenly noticed that there were several lines of words on the back of the notebook.
“Uncle Rufus, I really miss you. Where did you go? Why don’t you come and visit me and mommy?”
“Uncle Rufus, I really want you to sing Little Star for me again.”
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