Love is the Sunshine novel Chapter 370

"Okay. If you don't want to talk about it, let's change the topic," said Julie. She could easily guess by Noah's depressed look that he and Carla weren't getting along.

Honestly, she already had the hunch since Terence came to find her that day.

Terence finding her to substitute Carla on making love with Noah was more than enough proof that Carla and Terence's relationship were still solid.

She was successful in substituting Carla that night, which meant that Noah couldn't tell the difference between her and Carla.

And at the same time, it also meant that Noah and Carla never did anything intimate amid their engagement.

"How are you, Julie? We haven't seen each other for half a year,"

Noah asked after sipping wine from his glass.

Hearing his question, Julie forced a wry smile and answered, "Noah, do you think the fish will live a happy life without water?"

Noah looked at Julie. He hadn't seen this woman beside him for a long time. She still looked the same in general but her eyes looked exhausted now.

Realizing that Noah didn't answer, Julie immediately apologized, "Sorry, Noah, I shouldn't have said that. Don't you want to drink? If you don't mind, can I accompany you?"

Then she raised her glass as if proposing a toast and drank a large sip of wine. "I really hope that you live a happy life, Noah. Even if we are not a couple anymore, I really hope for you to be better without me...

Being loved is much happier than loving someone. But of course, you never know that!"

Julie felt a bit bolder after drinking. She would never dare to tell things like this to Noah before.

Nonetheless, a lot of things had already changed between them. She wasn't Noah's girlfriend anymore, so she wasn't afraid of being abandoned again.

Little did she know that Noah understood what she said clearly.

He even agreed to her thoughts. It was true, being loved was so much better than loving someone.

In all honesty, he didn't even try loving anyone before meeting Carla. He just learned how to love someone sincerely after he and Carla got engaged.

"I'm sorry, Julie." Noah took a sip of wine then looked at the woman next to him.

This woman had been around him for nearly four years. However, he had let her down until he lost her.

Hearing his apology for the first time, Julie wasn't able to stop her tears. He had never said sorry to her even after they broke up. She had never expected to hear him say this.

"I don't need your apology. I just want you to be happy, Noah." Chewing on her lower lip, Julie tried to control her sobs. She forced a mild smile and looked at him. "I love you just as much as you love Carla. And such a kind of love is already hard to change.

I never wanted to give up on you when we broke up. But you don't want me to love you anymore. I was deprived of that right. Do you have a clue of how painful it was at that time?"

Noah avoided Julie's gaze and never looked at her again. He lifted his glass instead and bottomed-up his wine. His heart was about to explode with bitterness as he thought, 'Is this my karma?

Is God punishing me for what I've done to Julie?'

It took Julie a little while to calm down. She then wiped her eyes and apologetically said, "I'm really sorry for bring up the past. I shouldn't be talking about this anymore.

Let's have a toast for old times' sake!"

Julie drank all her wine, wiped her mouth, and said, "It's a bit late now, Noah. Did you drive here alone? Do you need me to call a driver for you?"

As soon as Julie finished talking, Noah held the back of her hand and looked at her. "Let's go to another place. Talk with me a little more, okay?"

A bit surprised, Julie paused for some seconds before replying, "Okay." They both ended up in Julie's house.

Noah couldn't count how many times he'd been in this same house before. The only thing he could remember was coming here when he felt lonely and needed a warm body to satisfy his manly needs.

It had been like that for four long years.

Although he had other women while Julie was around, he never looked at this place any better than a comfort area.

He just knew that he was comfortable here so he came frequently.

He was never loyal to her and there were only two possible reasons for that. One was because he was not married or maybe, he just plainly didn't love Julie back then.

After a couple of seconds, Noah thought that the reason was probably the latter.