Love Letters, Divorce Papers (Jared and Amber) novel Chapter 789

If Makenna hadn’t deceived him, Logan wouldn’t mistake Amber for the other woman between his brother and Makenna and wouldn’t hate Amber so much before then.

Though he used to be bad-tempered, he knew Amber had been kind to him in the past six years. But he had told himself to ignore Amber’s kindness because he thought Amber was his brother’s mistress. Therefore, he had been treating her with bad manners. Only in this way could he remind himself that Amber was a home-wrecker who ruined the happiness of Makenna and his brother and he must not be softened by her kindness.

The reason why Logan hated this kind of person so much was that his mother, though a little bit different, was a mistress of his father. So, when he was a child, people around him condemned his mother as a mistress and also called him a bastard, which made him angry but he could do nothing to stop them. It was because of his mother’s disrepute that people always laughed at him and they also picked on his parents, saying his mother was a vulgar woman who was in luck for being the mistress of Farrell while Mr. Farrell was a moron who didn’t choose those elegant ladies of noble names but fell in love with a barbarous woman. All these rumors hurt him like a sharp knife and distorted his young mind, so he became even more rebellious in his adolescence to hide his feeling of inferiority.

In the past six years, he treated Amber appallingly and, because he hated Amber for destructing the relationship between Makenna and his brother and he was afraid that people would laugh at his brother for marrying a mistress, just like his father. In this way, he hoped to warn Amber to give up the engagement between Jared and her and stay away from the Farrells.

But only after Amber left did Logan come to realize that Amber was not the other woman but the one who his brother truly loved, while Makenna was the mistress, the one who tried to break up the relationship between Jared and Amber. When he finally found out that it was he himself who helped the mistress to drive away his brother’s true love, he was overwhelmed by the feeling of guilt.

He had wanted to apologize to Amber ever since then but his vanity had stopped him and he was also afraid that Amber wouldn’t forgive him. Therefore, he didn’t screw up his courage to visit Amber and apologize even when it was time for him to go abroad for the U17 competition. While Logan took it as a chance to escape from the Olkmore City, thus escaping from the apology and the guilt in his heart, so he packed up and went abroad at once. However, when he did escape, he felt even more guilty and he started to loathe himself as a chicken who didn’t have the courage to apologize.

But fortunately, after months of competition, he got to know different people and grew more mature after many failures. He finally made up his mind to call Amber and this time he would sincerely apologize to her. Thinking of this, Logan clenched his fist to encourage himself.

As if knowing what he was thinking about, Amber sneered and said, “You can’t use it as a justification for what you have done to me.”

Logan couldn’t deny it. He was deceived by Makenna because he believed her so easily and he should be blamed for what he had done since he did that of his own will. There was no justification and he was guilty in the end.

Logan fell into silence and his breath became heavy from the condemnation, while Amber said coolly, “What? Feeling upset?”

“A little bit. But I know I deserve it.” Logan admitted. Though he was just seventeen years old, Logan was very tall perhaps for the reason of playing basketball, and with his height of 1.9 meters, he was 2 centimeters taller than Jared. He was large and tall when sitting on the bench, but the timorous expression on his face was so opposite from his huge figure that made him ridiculous.