Chapter 322
Chapter 322
Irvin didn’t answer me the entire ride.
Once we reached where I was staying, I couldn’t help asking him again.
Only then did he finally reply, “I had to agree to a deal.”
“What deal?” I asked.
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“I have to keep pretending to be Timothy and be in a nominal mattage with Grace until she takes back control of the Keller family.”
Then, Irvin gave me a rough explanation of the Kellers‘ situation.
I didn’t know what to say in response, so I was silent for a long time.
Suddenly, Irvin gripped my hand and begged, “Please wait for me babe.”
He needed to play Timothy, who was married to Grace. So, naturally, he couldn’t continue being intimate with me.
Because of this, Irvin hoped I could wait until he helped Grace succeed with her plan. He also hoped I could wait until he had taken full control of the Hardwell family too. That way, no one could threaten us again.
But did I want to? No, I didn’t, and I wouldn’t.
In fact, I even felt like God was helping with my indecisiveness because it seemed even He didn’t want me to continue being
with Irvin.
I pulled my hand back and looked stoically at Irvin. “No, I won’t. This is the end of us,” I flatly stated.
Irvin clearly hadn’t expected me to say that, as his eyes were filled with shock and hurt.
“Why? Why not, babe?” he asked.
My heart still ached at the sight of him like this, but it was only for a moment. The pain was no longer enough to make me hesitate or change my decision.
The current Irvin and his amnesiac self were the same person. Yet I could never be cruel to his amnesiac self. But now that I know he was back to his full self, I suddenly could.
This had to mean I had never loved Irvin’s current self. Instead, the version I had always loved was his younger self–the one
who only had eyes for me and loved me purely.
What I couldn’t let go of was the naive version of him, not the one who had hurt me.
“We’re already divorced, so there’s nothing between us anymore. And nothing will ever happen between us again, let alone when you’ll soon be someone else’s husband,” I said plainly.
Irvin anxiously grabbed my arms when he heard me say that.
“Babe, I’m not going to be someone’s husband! I’m just going to pretend to! It’ll be an act! You can tell I’ve gotten my memories back, right? So I know she’s my sister–in–law, which means there’s absolutely no way anything will happen between us!” he exclaimed.
His last sentence made me think of how he once said nothing could ever happen between him and Julianne.
Julianne had once been married to his father, so she had technically been his stepmother. And because there was that kind of relation there, Irvin believed he could never be involved with her.
Because of this, no matter how well he had treated Julianne, he had also felt it didn’t count as betraying me. He had also believed he wasn’t doing anything hurtful to me.
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