Being tactful, Sonia looked at Rose without a word; after all, she was the reason Toby nit-picked all the details.
One moment, he was afraid that she would feel cold, and the next moment, he was scared that Rose would prolong the chat with her and delay her from resting. But none would happen, and he was just worried for nothing.
There was a heater in the pavilion, so Sonia would not feel cold at all.
Besides, even if Rose would chat with her for a long time, it would not hold her up from her rest. After all, she was a night owl. However, when faced with Toby's concern and care, she was slightly amused, paired up with a pinch of gratefulness.
I mean, he won’t bother about the details if he doesn’t care.
“What are you thinking about, Sonia? Why are you giggling?” Rose asked with a gleam in her eyes as she stared at a smiling Sonia.
There was a flash in Sonia’s eyes before she came back to her senses. “N-No... It’s nothing, Grandma. Now that Toby’s gone, what is it that you wish to talk to me about?” She waved her hand.
Upon hearing Sonia’s words, Rose retracted the gentleness on her face and became serious. Registering Rose’s change, Sonia subconsciously sat straight and put on a serious expression too. “Grandma, what is it? Did something happen?”
“Well, that’s not entirely it.” Rose shook her head. “It’s just that it will be Toby’s biological mother’s death anniversary in a few days.”
“Death anniversary?”
“Yes, my dear.” Rose sighed. “This is what I wished to tell you. I asked Toby to bring you over in hopes that you could do me a favor.”
“Do tell, Grandma. Please. I’ll definitely help you if it’s within my capability,” Sonia said, her tone sounding serious.
Rose smiled in relief. “Then, Sonia, I shall thank you first. You’re definitely capable of helping me. I would like you to accompany Toby for the whole day on the day of his biological mother’s death anniversary.”
“This... Is there a plausible explanation for this?” Sonia tilted her head, feeling confused at Rose’s words.
Rose rubbed the grip of her walking cane, and her face was filled with distress. “I wonder if Toby has ever told you anything about his biological mother.”
“Yeah, briefly. I know his biological mother died of suicide,” Sonia replied, nodding her head.
“Hmm. That’s right. Toby’s mother died by suicide, and Toby was the first person to discover her body. Back then, Toby was just a young boy, aged around ten years old. One can imagine how traumatic it was for the poor young boy to have witnessed his mother’s dead body with his own eyes. Hence, he would be unlike his usual self every year on the day of his mother’s death anniversary.” “How out of character will he be?” Sonia clenched her fist. She could not help but get anxious.
Rose picked up her cup of tea and took a sip. “On that day, he would let down his stronghold facade before our eyes and become extremely fragile at heart. All he would do on this day is isolate himself and drown himself in liquor. Then, when he emerges from his isolation the next day, he would act as if the world was fine again, but it is hard not to notice the visible injuries on his body.”
“Visible injuries?” Sonia’s pupils shrank at once as soon as these two words appeared in her mind. “Could he be self-harming inside the room?”
Rose nodded bitterly. “You’re right. He’s indeed self-harming. Toby’s mother slit her wrist and passed away, and Toby was the first to discover his mother’s body. His former psychiatrist said because it had left a traumatic impact on Toby, he would not be in the right state of mind on the day of his mother’s death anniversary, and he would subconsciously harm himself.”
“So that’s why.” Sonia bit her lower lip. It was not made aware for her that Toby had such a secret. However, it was possible since she never truly understood him anyway.
As Sonia’s pen pal or husband, Toby seldom took the initiative to tell her more about him.
Back when they were still pen pals, it was Sonia who told him everything about her, and most of the time, he merely talked things through with her. He rarely shared stories about himself, and since she seldom asked him, she had no idea how old John was, where he lived, and how his family’s situation was.
After Sonia fell in love with Toby, she only knew that he was a gentle senior, but little did she know that this senior was John, a pen pal who had been communicating with her for so many years.
Speaking of which, what she did to Toby was rather unfair. She had been complaining that Toby couldn’t tell Tina was impersonating her. But, it was the same for her too. She could not recognize that Toby was her pen pal, John.
But now she knew that he did realize Tina wasn’t her. He was merely hypnotized into forgetting about the whole issue. As for her case, from the beginning till the end, she did not once recognize him as John.
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