"That happened?" Titus was stunned in surprise and stopped moving his spoon.
Julia hummed with a sad expression. "That happened for a while, but I haven't told you about this. You are not in good health and I am afraid it'll make you stressed, so I hid the truth. I thought the situation would gradually improve; however, she didn't, and she is losing weight."
However, as a mother, I am not distressed when I see my daughter in pain.
I don't have even the slightest distress at the sight of my depressed daughter.
I know this is wrong as a mother.
But I am not sad at all.
Still, I have a duty as a mother.
Although I don't have affection for this girl, she is still my daughter whom I had been looking for twenty years.
Even though I don't like Rina, I will still take responsibility as a mother.
It is strange. I don't have much affection toward Rina even though she is the daughter I didn't feel able to attend to and love for twenty years. I should spoil her, and my brain is telling me I should do that too.
However, I can't do it in practice. I can't love Rina. Still, when I looked at the photos of my daughter when she was a child, the maternal love in my heart was overflowing.
I can't understand this situation.
Could it be that I love Rina's child self instead of her grown-up self?
But this isn't possible!
This isn't logical.
No matter what Rina's age is, she is still the same person.
Does my love for Rina disappear as she grows up?
This isn't scientific at all. As for a reason, I don't know and can't understand.
Hence, Julia had kept these strange feelings deep in her mind and never revealed them. She was afraid that Rina would be sad upon coming to know that her mother did not love her.
For a while, Julia was distracted.
Titus didn't know what she was thinking about, so he spooned some food for her. "It might be because of the incident in the ward."
Upon hearing that, Julia was stunned. "You mean the stuff we discussed in the ward during Sonia's press conference?"
"Yup." Titus nodded. "At that time, we suspected Sonia was Rina. Then, you said that you don't feel love for Rina. After Rina heard those words, she ran away sadly. We coaxed her for a long time to make her feel better. I think that despite her looking better, she is secretly concerned about this, so she had nightmares."
Julia frowned upon hearing that. "However, it's been so long since the incident. I thought she had long forgotten about it."
Titus tapped her hand. "I can understand. Rina has been separated from us for twenty years. When she finally returned home, she heard her parents suspected someone else was the daughter and you didn't have feelings for her. It must be traumatic for Rina, and she would surely wonder if she's a burden."
Hearing that, Julia knew she was at fault. After a sigh, she said, "Hubby, do you think I need to consult a psychiatrist? I don't know why I don't have feelings for Rina. I was yearning for our daughter and prayed for her well-being, but I am so cold to her when she finally has returned." Julia looked at her hand and was confused. "Hubby, do I have an illness?"
Titus looked at her in response.
To be honest, I don't quite understand my wife.
However, I know she definitely isn't ill.
I will explain Julia's attitude toward Rina as Julia hasn't gotten used to Rina yet.
Hence, Titus comforted Julia as such.
Julia forced a smile but did not speak. Still, no one knew what she was thinking.
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