Mated in the Shadow of My Sister novel Chapter 41

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Dr. Miller said that it was normal for wolves to block their humans for a while after a rejection, because they need time on their own to heal and process. Unfortunately, I knew that in our situation, there was more to it than that. Luke had begged me not to accept Lily’s rejection, and in a fit of rage, I had blocked him out and done it anyway.

Luke and I were a team, and who we accept or reject as a mate is a decision that directly impacts us both. In my anger, I made the decision for both of us. I knew that it would be a while before he would forgive me for that, if he ever would. I could only pray to the Moon Goddess that, in time, he would understand that we had no choice but to reject Lily. There was no way that our pack would have ever accepted her as a future Luna, and sharing a bed with someone to blame for us losing the love of our life was a torture neither of us should have to deal with.

Ultimately, I spent a week feeling guilty about what I had done, and then I spent a week feeling angry at Luke for being too stubborn to see the mistake that the Moon Goddess had made by pairing us with Lily.

Then, in week three, I shifted to looking for someone else to blame. The Little Brat was, of course, the most logical target. I began to once again curse her in my mind, adding “wolf-killer” to her list of sins and murderous traits. I largely set aside my initial worry about the Little Brat’s condition, telling myself that her decision to show up bruised and battered to Stephanie’s memorial was just as much a ploy for attention as her bizarre behavior at Stephanie’s very first memorial event. I also began to day-dream about new ways to get revenge. Some of my better ideas included making her my personal maid whose responsibilities would include hand-washing the bedding that I would “dirty” multiple times a day, and/or hiring a painter to paint murals of Stephanie and I hugging and kissing on all four walls of the Little Brat’s bedroom. *

Eventually and unfortunately, during week four, the yo-yo of emotions running through me shifted again. Every time I thought of some new revenge plot, I felt Luke retreat further and further away. It sort of took the fun out of the revenge planning process.