My Familiar Mistakes novel Chapter 4

Chapter #4 : Where was Her Comfortzone

[Veera’s P.O.V.]

"Sandwich oh." Adam offered me a sandwich he was holding.

"Thank you" I said and just ate quietly still thinking about when would mama be able to get out of the hospital.

"Don't worry, I will help with the hospital bills." He said and just continued eating.

"You haven't come home yet." I looked at the time on my phone.

It's midnight already. Mama is still here in the hospital for the passed 5days.

Her doctor told me that mama would first be given beta blockers to slow down her heartbeat for a faster recovery. They also gave mama some fluids for the lungs to help the heart to recover. Doctors had given a lot of needed nutrients and put alot of attached things onto her body. It is said that the enlargement of mama's left ventricle is doubled. It was not normal at all. So it is said that it is quite difficult to be neglected, that's why we are encouraged to make the recovery stage safe and less dangerous. They also said that they used to tell her that she is really required to quit her job because it was not good for her, especially she was also able to carry heavy loads on her jobs.

Adam and I have not been in school for a few days. I don't know, why Adam also sacrificed his attendance and grades for us. You would really thought, on the way that He decides to stays with me in the hospital, He is the real child of my mom.

Vita is also staying already with EunYeo for the passed 5 days. She's doing fine and Vita seems to be great. EunYeo also delivers her to school. Every other day EunYeo brings notes and lessons for Adam and I.

“They aren't looking for me at home. Besides, I can't leave you here alone. We don't know the tendencies. You might jump off the rooftop. And went up ahead than your mom. Poor Vita she might be alone. ” Staring, he said to me while chewing the bread properly.

“Heh! You talk like you're from nowhere in the universe! You are pure nonsense. Why would I do that? What am I, crazy? ” I said to him with disbelief on what he had said.

Sometimes his jokes really didn't fit in the right situations.

“I am also worried about Tita Veena, so I stayed here and not to accompany you. Tita Veena is kind to me --- unlike you, you are very ungrateful every time I help. ” He said as he reached me a bottle of water.

“You know I don't know what to think of you. I think you like either mom or Vita. Gosh Adam! Yes you are helping and always wanted to help others out. But don't overdo it, other people might misinterpret you. ” I said while opening the bottled water that almost broke the lid due to my force.

"Getting angry?" He said teasingly.

I just stared at him because of what he was saying.

“You go home! You take care of Vita and get her from EunYeo. After all, you had bribed that little sister of mine” I said without an expression and just put my extra tshirt on my face and leaned back in the chair.

"Even if I want to, my parents might just confuse me as Pedophile or not so they might think I hid a granddugahter from them." He ignorantly remarked.

I didn't responde to what he said.

"I will just bought fruit for Tita Veena. I will be right back." He said and stood up.

I just gave him a thumbs-up and closed my eyes again.

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After Adam left to buy some fruits, I left my seat.

I want to go somewhere.

I took the elevator.

I just kept quiet while simply looking at the people who was with me inside the elevator.

There is a doctor, there is a staff member or maybe a nurse who I think has tools or food in the cart he is carrying, There is a mother and child but the child looks sick, There is also a woman who is probably the same age as me.

What are their possible reasons for being in the hospital? What kind of doctor is this with us in the elevator? Is he operating? Diagnosing? Is he a saving doctor? Or is he one of the doctors who is good but kills the patient?

The nurse that we are with? Why does he consider himself a servant and a caregiver for patients? Didn't he want to be a doctor and expand what he could to help patients?

What are they? What is their purpose why they are here today? These patients? Why are they here? What illnesses do they feel?

“Miss? Which floor are you on? ” Smiling, the woman who looked just about my age told me.

“Ahh. In what. Floor… In… ”I stammered ..

Where am I going? Why am I here?

“On the 4th floor. Just to visit someone. ” I said a little nervous.

“Ahh maybe you will visit your baby sibling. I will also go to that floor. Do you want to come join me? ” She smiled at me.

"All right" I said sparingly and fell silent again.

What exactly is on the 4th floor?

Do I really want to be carried there by my feet?

W-what place is this in the hospital?

“Miss? What place i-is this? ” I shyly asked the woman I was with when the elevator closed and went up again.

“Why? Aren't you going here? This is the Nursery ward. I will go to my baby. ” She said.

What?? She already had a baby?

“Yes. I already have a baby. I just gave birth 5days ago. I still can't get my baby out because his heart is weak and he still needs to stay here in the hospital. ” She said because I was just looking at her blankly.

"Come I will show him to you" She said and she let me follow where she was going.

“Do you see the baby in the third incubator on the left? That's my baby. ” She said with a smile.

“It is early for me to had a baby right? But honestly speaking? He was a blessing to me. He was the only right thing that happened to me even though my life was very chaotic. ” She said with a smile.

“My parents are divorced. They already have their own families. I was their only child. They both cut their connection with me. There were lots of work I did enter just to live on my own at a young age. It is very difficult to survive when you are alone. ” Her tears are dripping as she tells the story but she is not sad at all.

“I was working at a club last 6months. But when they found out I was pregnant, they fired me. One of my customers got me pregnant. To be specific… my dad's eldest son. His son with his current wife… At first I didn't want to get pregnant… but when my belly gradually grew and I felt his kicks and movement inside my womb. I realized that there might be a reason why it was given to me. He was given to me so that I could be with someone…. ” her tears flowed more often on her cheeks.

I looked at the baby he was pointing inside the incubator… it was a boy because there was a blue sticker attached to the incubator.

“How are you? Your strength is impressive. ” I said to her and patted her gently on the shoulder.

She smiled at me in what I've said.

"You? Why are you in the hospital? I know you did not know where you were going earlier.., so I asked you. ” Smiling she said.

I fell silent and stared at the floor…

“I am here because my mother had a heart attack, 5 days ago. We had an argument more and more as we headed home. We stayed here in the hospital because her heart needed to return to its original form and also her strength. She had Peripartum Cardiomyopathy. Enlargement of the heart after childbirth. I think she got it after she gave birth to me and my sister.. She did not bother to consult a doctor after giving birth. ” I told her a long and tearful story of what happened to mama.

“I blame myself for why I became mama's child. She still had to have that kind of pain. My sister was also affected because she got pregnant again without knowing that she had such a disease. Even though we are struggling, she still insists to served us something to eat at the dinner table. ” Crying, I told her.

"Stop crying. Don't you know that for a mother, the most important person and thing are her children? Every mother will do just to protect, nurture, care for and raise her child properly. Once a baby was born, a mother was also born. So if it were not for you and your sister, she would not be able to find the Happiness she is experiencing and feeling now. ” Smiling, she said.

Are we really like that for mom? Why is mama so selfless? Why does she even let herself get sick when we are the most important to her? Didn't mama think that if she also took care of herself, she would take better care of Vita and me?