My Heart only Beats for You (Natalie Godfrey) novel Chapter 1283

Brennan's psychologist told Selina everything.

"He first visited me ten years ago. When he was young, he wrote a love letter to a girl he liked very much. He was an introvert. It would usually be nothing for other boys to write a love letter to pursue their crush but for Brennan, it was an act that required all of his courage. It was a pity that the girl refused him."

"Besides that, the girl afterwards put the love letter in another boy's drawer. As a result, he was laughed for being homosexual by the whole school. Later, he couldn't stand the bullying and teasing anymore and transferred to another school. But the rumors followed him there as well. That made it hard for him to befriend anyone of the same gender. He's even tried ending things previously. What he went through caused a big turmoil in his life. Currently, he shuts himself off from the world. He doesn't see anyone and has no friends. All he does is stay home and come here to meet me each month."

The more Selina heard, the paler her face turned.

She asked in a trembling voice, "Does he hate that girl?"

The psychologist shook his head in confusion, "It's strange. He should hate her but he doesn't. I even found out during our appointments that he still likes the girl very much. He has loved her for more than ten years, even though she did such cruel things to him."

The word "cruel" slapped Selina across the face hard and she felt as if her heart was being wrenched out of her chest by invisible hands.

Twenty minutes later, Selina exited the psychologist's room.

Matthew had been waiting outside for a long time.

When he saw Selina's pale face, he immediately went over to her and asked, "Selina, are you okay?"

"Nothing, I'm fine," Selina shook her head.

Her jaw trembled as she spoke.

Matthew could feel that something wasn't right.

"Come on, I'll take you home. Try to relax and not think about anything for now."

Matthew immediately took Selina to the car. He called Erine while driving and asked her to make some stew for Selina.

When they reached Perry's family villa, Selina looked as if all energy had been drained from her. She did not even have the strength to step out from the car.

Matthew carried Selina in his arms.

He laid her on the sofa and covered her with a blanket.

Erine's stew was ready by then.

Matthew brought a bowl of stew for Selina.

The stew was very nourishing.

"Drink some," Matthew said softly.

Selina shook her head, "I don't want to."

"Here, I'll feed you," Matthew took a small spoonful of stew and brought it close to Selina's mouth.

Selina had no choice but to drink it. The bowl of stew was soon consumed completely.

Matthew put down the bowl and hugged Selina, "No matter what happened, I am with you."

Tears welled up at the corner of Selina's eyes, "Matthew, I'm really a terrible person. I'm the worst kind of person there is, right?"

It was then that Selina understood why Caroline hated her so much. It was because she was mean and cruel to others. She liked playing games and making a fool out of others.

She had even ruined the lives of other people.

If she hadn't put the love letter into another boy's drawer, Brennan wouldn't have become like this. He wouldn't have shut himself off from the world and he wouldn't need to make a monthly trip to a psychologist.

Matthew lifted Selina's chin with his other hand. He stared straight into her eyes, "Listen, Selina. You're the kindest among all the women I've ever met. Do you know that? Don't think of yourself in such a way."

Selina's showed a wry half smile, "But I am not a good person. Matthew, you don't understand, I am a bad person. You have no idea what wrongs I have done in the past. I am very willful and selfish. I only cared about myself and no one else. I am cruel."

"Even if you are willful, I still dote on you."