"Selina!" Lothar said in a voice louder than Selina, "Listen up. I only have half a month left to live. I don't care if you accept or refuse my proposal to give you my heart, half a month is all I have left. I want to give you to you, and you can live on just like you wished. I have to do this, do you understand!"
Selina cried and shook her head. "No, Lothar. Half a month is also time! Even if you only have that left, I can't take your heart. I can't let you do this!"
He looked into her eyes as he said, "Do you think I did it for you? Well, you're wrong! I did it for myself."
Hearing his words, she was stunned.
A bitter smile appeared on his face. "I only have half a month left to live. By then, I wouldn't be able to see and feel this world anymore. I wouldn't be able to be with Yesseca either. If I give you my heart, you can live my life for me. Take my place in living and seeing the world. Take care of my sister for me too. Can you do these for me, please?"
As he spoke, he pointed outside the window.
From that angle, they could see the clouds in the blue sky. The scenery was beautiful.
He murmured, "Selina, please take my place and live on for me. Feel the world, and take care of Yesseca, please. I only have 15 days. Even if I did live them out, it would be in pain. I rather give you my heart and make myself happy. Please do this for me."
She was completely stunned by his words.
An hour later, Lothar and Selina came out of the room.
He had a relaxed expression on his face.
On the other hand, she did not look too bad either, but there were teardrops in her eyes.
As soon as Selina came out, Matthew pulled her into his arms.
Slowly, he said to her, "No matter what decision you make, I will agree to it. If you want to live, I will live with you. If you want to end your life, I will be with you too."
When Lothar saw Matthew hugging Selina, he turned around.
Selina raised her face to look at Matthew. After some time, she said, "Let's have the surgery tonight."
She decided to live out Lothar's life for him.
"Okay." Matthew's voice became even deeper. "We shall have it tonight then."
They had lunch at Essie's house, but only oatmeal was served.
Lothar was afraid that Selina and Matthew would not be used to it, so he told them they could have lunch elsewhere.
However, they refused.
As they ate, Selina kept on staring at Lothar.
She knew that this was her last chance to see him.
However, her staring enraged Essie.
She threw the bowl on the table and said, "Can't you eat properly? Why must you stare at others when you eat? Don't you know you'll cause misunderstandings?!"
The others were all silent.
Glaring at Essie, Lothar said, "What nonsense are you spouting?"
Then he said bitterly, "Selina and Mr. Perry are very much in love with each other. Don't talk rot!"
"Humph, indeed they are." With that, Essie glared back at Lothar.
Just because they were in love with each other, did they have to make Lothar sacrifice his own life?
What an idiot Lothar was!
Essie believed she wouldn't run into another bigger fool than him.
Right then, she was so mad at Lothar for his stupidity.
But soon, her anger dissipated.
If he was a fool, she was one too.
After all, she fed the worm with her own blood for him. But he killed all her hard work by stepping on the worm.
She should have driven this ungrateful man away, but she still wanted to help him.
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