However, now she knew that she was wrong to love him.
This man was not worth her love at all.
She could love whoever she wanted, but of all the people she had to fall in love with, she had to fall for such a despicable and shameless man!
Yesseca dug her fingers into her palms. The pain she felt in her hands temporarily dulled the hurt she felt in her heart.
Selina woke up again.
It was exactly two o'clock in the morning.
She also woke up last night around this time. She was feeling hungry, so she went downstairs to get something to eat. A short while later, Matthew came down as well.
Although she told him to go back to bed, he insisted on keeping her company.
It was because of this that Matthew went to work with dark circles around his eyes again...
Selina carefully got out of bed.
She guessed that Matthew must have been exhausted from staying up so late for the past two days, so he would probably stay asleep tonight.
She went downstairs.
All kinds of snacks had been prepared in the kitchen in case she got hungry. Matthew had bought some fresh plums just for her and Erine had baked some fresh pastries as well.
Seline helped herself to some plums and a glass of milk.
The more she ate, the more energetic she felt.
Without Matthew's presence, she could think about things a bit more clearly.
For example, she thought about Lothar.
The last time she saw Lothar, he was standing outside the villa.
She didn't tell Matthew about this, because she thought it was all just in her head. If she had told him about it, she was afraid that Matthew would be worried about her.
Even though she knew it was just an illusion, she couldn't help but feel slightly hopeful.
She really hoped to see him outside the villa again.
Although she was very happy and had spent so many amazing years with Matthew, she still felt a familiar crack in her heart. It was caused by
Lothar.
As she thought of Lothar, she felt a faint pain in her chest.
She really missed him.
That handsome, cheerful boy.
She thought that she and Lothar would be good friends for the rest of their lives. They would still chat with each other happily, drink tea together and grow old together.
It was such a pity how quickly he left.
He left, to save her.
Of course, even though he never blamed her for it, Lothar still left.
However, she still stubbornly believed that Lothar's death was her fault. She felt like she owed Lothar a great debt of gratitude.
This was why she took such good care of Yesseca.
She hoped that by taking good care of Yesseca, she would be able to repay Lothar and allow him to be at peace in the afterlife.
She placed the half-empty glass of milk in her hand aside.
She lost her appetite.
A strange feeling welled up in her heart, which made her uncomfortable.
Selina stepped out of the villa to get some fresh air. She secretly hoped that she might see Lothar again.
If she were to hallucinate again, she would take the chance to talk to Lothar.
She had so many things to tell him.
She wanted to tell him that her life was good and that she was about to give birth to her baby.
She wanted to tell him that Yesseca was also doing well. She had introduced her cousin to Yesseca. Kyi in was a great and virtuous man. If Yesseca got together with her cousin, Yesseca would be happy for the rest of her life.
In short, she really had a lot to say.
Selina slowly stepped out of the villa.
The air was cold outside.
A person suddenly appeared in front of Selina.
Selina's entire body shook.
It wasn't Lothar, but Essie, whom she hadn't seen in a very long time.
"Essie!" Selina couldn't believe it. "Is it really you?"
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