How many cigarettes did Tobias smoke to make the car so smoky?
"Let's go out and talk. The cigarette smell is too strong in the car," Cecilia said.
He extinguished the cigarette in his hand and got out of the car.
They walked to a secluded place.
"What happened? Why did you smoke so much? I don't remember you smoking that much," Cecilia frowned and said.
Tobias was silent.
Her heart skipped a beat.
She had long noticed that there was something unusual about him.
She thought that he was probably too stressed at work.
However, his current state...
She was sure that it was not simply because of work.
"Tobias, what's wrong with you?" She asked tentatively.
Tobias's gaze fell on her face. With an unfathomable expression on his face, he asked, "Mother, did you once have a daughter?"
Cecilia's head buzzed and exploded.
The taut air burst in an instant and the sky suddenly became dark.
She only came back to her senses after a long while.
She looked at him and asked, "You know about that?"
Tobias did not answer her.
Cecilia took a deep breath.
That was her past. Originally, she did not intend to tell him about it.
However, since he was asking about it now, she had to give him an explanation.
After all, she gave birth to this daughter after she got together with Tobias' father.
"Tobias, I didn't love your father at first, but my parents, your grandparents, liked him very much. They wanted me to marry him and at that time, I already had a man who loved me."
"He was very poor and your grandparents refused to accept him. Even when I knelt down in front of them, they still didn't agree to our marriage. In the end, your grandmother threatened me with her death."
As she spoke of the past, Cecilia's voice was a little choked. "After that, your father came to me and told me that he knew that I didn't love him. He said that he could give me time. If I still couldn't forget that man after two years of marriage with him, he would let go and allow me to look for that man. He even promised to help me lie to your grandparents."
"I was too young and quick-tempered at that time so I agreed to your father, and was pregnant with you soon after. Two years later, I still couldn't forget that man, and your father let me go."
Saying this, Cecilia looked at him with guilt. "Tobias, I felt that I had wronged you. It was my fault. At that time, I was blinded by love and even abandoned you, who were still a toddler. I'm not qualified to be a mother."
Tobias did not say anything and his face was emotionless.
Her eyes were red. "I found that man later, but..."
She did not continue. This past event had been too excruciating for her.
The pain was so excruciating that she almost forgot about it.
If Tobias had not asked her about it, she would not even want to recall it.
"Tobias, I got pregnant and gave birth to his daughter later. For various reasons, I couldn't keep this daughter by my side, so I had to entrust her to a very good friend at that time."
That friend of hers was someone Cecilia met when she lived an impoverished life with that man.
At that time, she was the only person she could trust.
After Cecilia gave birth to the girl, she asked one of her old servants to entrust the child to her good friend.
Her face was twisted in pain after saying this.
This memory was like a knife cutting through her heart.
Tobias felt his blood suddenly turn cold.
He looked at Cecilia and asked, "Mother, have you visited that girl?"
Cecilia smiled bitterly and replied, "No, I feel that I have wronged her, so I don't dare to see her."
Everyone had some things or people they wanted to escape from. This girl was what she wanted to escape from.
She felt apologetic over her daughter.
Even the most perfect person in the world had flaws.
And this daughter was Cecilia's flaw. She did not dare to face her.
"Mother, what's the name of the friend you entrusted your daughter to?"
All of a sudden, the sky was covered with heavy clouds. The air was gloomy, as if a storm was coming.
Facing the great pain, Cecilia did not think too much about it.
She was not even surprised that Tobias would ask her such a question.
She answered subconsciously, "Madison Alexander."
He had already known the answer, but he still felt as if he had been struck by lightning upon hearing the answer from Cecilia.
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