"Natalie, are you okay?" Hayden asked her, his eyes wide.
Natalie looked at Hayden's face in a daze.
There was no light in her eyes, only emptiness.
After a while, she came back to her senses.
She touched Hayden's face and said in a low voice, "I'm fine. Hayden, you have to eat more so you can grow taller."
Hayden smiled at that. "I will. I'm going to grow tall, even taller than Daddy."
There was a sense of despair in Natalie's eyes.
Simon's words from earlier in the day almost moved her.
But what happened after that made her determined.
She had to leave Tobias, and once she did, that would be the end of it.
This meant that she would have to do so even if she had leave Hayden.
Tobias was not well.
Everything would end only if she were to leave.
After dinner, Natalie excused herself and went to the bedroom, saying that she was tired.
Just as Tobias was about to enter her room, Cecilia stopped him.
She looked at Tobias with some concern. "Tobias, Natalie seems to be strange today. Is she in a bad mood?"
Tobias looked tired. "I will comfort her," he replied.
"Tobias, you always have a sense of propriety when doing things. I don't want you to lose your sense of propriety with Natalie."
Tobias's breath hitched for a moment, and a flash of irony appeared in his eyes.
He had a sense of propriety.
He had always felt that this was the case.
But now he knew that he was wrong.
When faced with Natalie, he could not be rational. He would always be reduced to a mess.
He knew that he had hurt her earlier.
After entering the bedroom, Natalie was already in bed, her back towards Tobias.
Tobias got in bed and put his arms around her waist.
Natalie's body immediately trembled.
She was not asleep.
A hint of sorrow flashed in Tobias' eyes.
He could feel it, Natalie's fear of him.
He had never expected that one day, Natalie would be so terrified of him.
He had always wanted to spoil her, but he never thought that he would hurt her so badly.
Tobias was enveloped in endless regret. He was filled with guilt and exhaustion.
"Natalie," Tobias said, "I'm sorry."
Hearing his apology, Natalie's lips curled with sarcasm and despair.
Tobias was apologising to her?
After all the pain and suffering that he'd inflicted on her?
Though he was apologising now, would he act the same way next time?
Natalie already knew that each short burst of sweetness would only be followed by endless pain.
She and Tobias were destined to torture each other, and it would not end well.
It was best for both of them if she were to leave Tobias.
Natalie's eyes were filled with determination.
"I am tired," Natalie said. "Go to sleep."
Tobias tightened his grip on Natalie's waist.
Time slowly passed, but Natalie's eyes remained wide open.
She was waiting for the darkest hour to arrive, waiting for Tobias to fall asleep.
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