My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 181

My Love My Hatred Chapter 181

“Lance Mason, why the f*ck did you bring that whore to an event like this?!” 

Lance Mason‘s whore? She was obviously speaking of me. Wait, her voice sounded extremely familiar....… 

(LANCE”S POV: We were in a hotel hall, she turned me on so badly in public. The way she warned and spoke to Anthony was so damn sexy. She was like the lady boss, I couldn’t take it anymore and pleasured her in the 

washroom. 

I realized that my love for her was getting even deeper. I knew if I didn‘t change my attitude, she would leave me no matter what, it‘s only a matter of time. So this time, I didn‘t force her. I  didn‘t rape her. Raping her was a mistake, but I couldn‘t control myself 

every time. 

She always made me angry, the reason why I also f*ck her when she made me angry was because I didn‘t know what else to do. I always controlled myself, telling myself I shouldn‘t hit her, but if I don‘t hit her, there was no way for me to let my anger out. So, I chose to f*ck her. 

Whenever she spoke back to me and try to provoke me, her fierce eyes, her pouty lips, her tone......it all made her look even more sexy and gorgeous. Yet, she made me angry, but at the same time she seemed to always turn me on easily without even knowing. 

I know I couldn‘t use this as an excuse to cover up the fact that I f*cked her without her permission, but then I  still wasn‘t able to control myself until today, in the washroom. I realized that I have to be gentler to her, I never wanted to hurt her. 

When I saw how much her body was enjoying my touch, my teasing, was so happy and turned on. I wanted so badly to take here right there, but I couldn‘t, the doctor warned us. So instead of pleasuring myself, I chose to pleasure her. She didn‘t want to admit that she felt good, but her moans and expression showed it all. I could also actually feel the change of attitude towards me. 

She was still cold and cruel to me, but she was changing slightly, I knew she was softening her heart. I wasn‘t sure if she noticed it, but I could sense it. And I didn‘t ask or tell her, I would give her more time. I was horrible to her, 

so now I want to repay her. I would give her the time she needed to forgive me and learn to love me. 

I‘m sure I was already deeply in love with her, but the problem with me was, I used to be a very twisted person, it was hard for me to learn to love like a normal man. Ever since I was young, everyone listened to me and I had control over everyone, so when Jennie go against me and didn‘t do as she was told, that made me angry and crazy. But I‘m trying, I’m trying to change for her, to love her in a gentle way......) 

Back at the mansion, we were sleeping on the bed. I couldn‘t sleep and kept turning around, my swollen face hurt. Lance was woken up by me and he pulled me into his arms, “Why are you not sleeping?” 

I shook my head in his arms and 

said, “No, my face hurts.” Well, it was obvious enough what happened in the hall. His ex–wife slapped me very hard. Now, it was swollen. 

Lance reached out his hands and switched on the table lamp beside our bed. He touched my face softly and spoke in a low voice, “Sorry I wasn‘t able to stop her.” 

I pushed his chest away, wanting some distance between us. “I can‘t sleep, I want to watch some shows downstairs, you go to sleep!” 

There‘s also a TV in the room, but if I watch it here, he wouldn‘t be able to sleep. 

Lance took the remote control of the TV in his room and asked me what I wanted to watch, he said he would watch it with me. 

“No it‘s fine, you have work 

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Chapter 181 tomorrow, just go to bed. I‘ll be fine.” | said. 

Lance sat up from his bed and carried me into his lap. He hugged me from behind and rested his chin on my head 

Sometimes I felt like I had already make it very obvious, so I didn‘t know if Lance really didn‘t notice, or if he pretended to not know. 

Halfway through the movie, Lance‘s face turned dark. I knew why, because the movie was about a man who raped a girl, at first she didn‘t care because she was in love with him, but then after some time of sweet and romantic period together, the girl finally realized that she had to get justice. So she sued him to court no matter how much she used to love him, because what he did to her was too painful.