My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 183

My Love My Hatred Chapter 183

He sounded like he was begging me, pleasing me...... 

His sudden soft attitude must have softened my heart for a moment too because the harsh words I was about to throw at him went back down into my throat. I couldn‘t bring myself to speak those words to him at that moment. 

At this moment, I realized we have changed. Lance was different, I was also different. We were not the same anymore..... 

I didn‘t say a single word and he went back up the stairs. I followed behind him and we got on the bed. 

I was always impressed by how both of us were able to sleep on the same bed, since we were always mad at 

each other. 

“Lance, can I ask you something?” “What?” 

In the bedroom, it was dim, the yellow lights made the room felt soft and warm. 

But the two people in the room were very cold. Heart was cold. 

“Last time, when we also slept on the same bed, did you want to choke me to death all the time?” 

He used to choke me or pull my hair all the time back then. We were like cats and dogs, always fighting. 

He turned to face me and asked, “I should be asking you the same question, did you want to choke me to death? You slapped me like hell yesterday, how did it feel?” 

Seems like he was still a little conscious, seeing that he knew | 

slapped him. 

“Not bad, feels good. So you want revenge?” I asked, winking. 

He pinched my nose and smiled, “I don‘t want revenge. You‘re the type to hold a grudge, I don‘t want you going around telling people that I abuse you.” 

“Oh, so you admit that you abuse me?” I asked. 

He laid on his back and entwined our fingers together, his thumb softly circling on top of my hands. i remember reading a book which says if a man loves you, he would do things such as entwining your fingers together, play with you hair...... 

Yes, I admit Lance had been constantly showing his affection to me through words, telling me that he loves me, but I still didn‘t feel anything for him 

at that time. 

“Jennie, this is double standard, why can you hit me and I can‘t hit you? We are even now.” Lance said. 

SO! 

He couldn‘t have sex with me, but this pervert man thought of a new way to satisfy his own sexual needs. So he closed my legs together and raised it up, he made me a “L” position. Then instead of putting himself into me, he thrust in and out of my closed legs, in between my thighs. 

Whenever Lexi saw me nowadays,