My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 188

My Love My Hatred Chapter 188

I walked around the campus aimlessly, then I saw you. You and Leo. I saw your smile, it was such an innocent and bright smile. I could see Leo Mason reflected in your eyes. I was jealous, I was so envious of Leo. I thought, if only you had smiled at me so warmly once in all these years, maybe, just maybel wouldn‘t have treated you so badly. If you had smiled at me once, maybe would have softened my heart towards you, I wouldn‘t have been so cold blooded. 

I started to be like a stalker, following you and Leo all the time in secret. Leo found out and I went back from your campus. 

After many years later, I only 

realized why I did something so strange, it was because, there was always a voice in my heart, telling me it was your birthday, telling me that the day I went to see you was the day you officially became an adult. A poor looking girl finally grew into a beautiful, gorgeous young lady. I thought, why not go and have a look at her...... 

And so, I flew to your campus. After seeing you that day perhaps I didn‘t want to admit or remember why I did this, I forgot about it totally, 

I forgot temporarily about the things that I did. 

I was very sure it was you who stole the data from my safebox. Leo told me before, that you are an extremely 

smart woman. You started working part time while studying in high school, and you were even able to get into the best university. Leo said you could easily remember everything you see for a time period after looking at it once. I knew how you were able to guess my password, because you knew me well since then. 

I thought my password was hard enough, but she was still able to unlock it. I could have installed at CCTV, but I didn‘t. I could have changed my lock to a finger print lock, but I didn‘t. I really wanted to treat you like family. I didn‘t know why I didn‘t do those things to protect my own data, maybe subconsciously I was trying to test you? 

You didn‘t love me, but Leo thought you still loved him. Seems like he was also a fool to believe that you loved him still. 

He had been doing this research for a long time, even when you guys  were still together, you would know. Yet, you still chose to give it to Niklaus, how cold blooded have you become, Jennie? I didn‘t know if I should happy, because at least now it proved that you didn‘t love Leo Mason anymore. 

When you called out his name on bed, I knew you did it on purpose, because your lids were moving, you weren‘t really deep asleep. When you used to shout and cry for him long time ago, I knew it was sincere that time, I could feel how painful and hurt you were. But it all changed, I didn‘t know when, but I knew you didn‘t love him anymore. 

Now, you‘ve become cruel, you‘re full of plots. You knew I hate it when you interact with any men, but you still flirted with Anthony. You smiled at him, laughed with him...... you were carrying Lexi in your arms that time, yet you flirted with another man, how would a child think?