My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 45

Chapter 45 Dead of Alive
Humans are strange creatures. At least that’s what I thought. Lance’s behavior right now was making me confused. What was he trying to do to me?
I’m his toy that he’s been playing with a while now, why wasn’t he getting sick of me? Was he trying to stab me with a knife slowly?
But giving me to an old man, letting gossips cover me…these are all invisible knives that stabbed me already!
We reached Pavilion Residence. Lance got out of the car first and I followed behind. He went up his stairs. I didn’t know if I should follow, as his lower, I should. But I stood there in his living room, not moving.
Lance turned around and looked at me with annoyance. “Are you waiting for m to carry you up?”
I sighed and followed him.
We were in this middle of the stairs when he suddenly turned around and carried me in his arms. I was surprised. “What are you doing?”
“You! Isn’t that obvious?” Lance answered me coldly, looking at me in his arms.
I’m always impressed at how Lance can say such dirty things in such a formal tone.
He put me down on his huge bed and immediately came on top of me, unbuckling his belt.
“I don’t feel well today, I’m having my period.” I said.
My words seemed to upset him, he raised an eyebrow and asked: “Really?”
It was obvious he didn’t believe me.
My stomach was having cramps, so I assumed my period was coming soon, I’ve never had an accurate period.
I nodded: “Yes, it should be here by today.”
Lance looked at my face. I didn’t look like I was lying but he was still having doubts. he inserted one of his hands into my pants.
I used my other hand to stop him and yelled angrily: “What the hell, Lance!”
He pulled my pants away and opened my legs wider, he touched me down there and asked: “Didn’t you say you have your period? Where? Where it is?”

He asked sarcastically.
I just knew it was coming, I have symptoms all the time, I couldn’t be wrong.
“It’s coming real soon, can you not touch me? If you do me during this time, it would hurt my body! Wait for a few days.”
Lance didn’t even care about it. He continued unbuckling his belt: “Do you think 1 would care about your body? Are you kidding me?”
Yea, who am I kidding? I should have known.
He grinned evilly and said: “I heard that when girls are on their period, their hole get tighter and will make us men feel better. I’ve never tried it, so let’s do it.”
And with that, he opened my legs even wider and inserted himself into me.
Without any foreplay, which means he didn’t even get me wet and pushed himself inside my body.
Pain shot through me like bullets. I cried out in pain.
He’s an animal, cold blooded animal.
He moved his body and bit my lips at the same time, not letting me cry out in pain.
The sweat from his forehead dripped onto my lips, making feel grossed out.
I’ve never felt so much hatred for a person in my life!
I was so in pain but I couldn’t scream, I could only cry. I watched the man on top of me, memorizing his every expression.
The pain that he put me through now, I will make him pay twice the price.
The next day, all I could felt was stomach cramps….. I recalled Lance’s hard breathing and my own voice, begging him to stop.
But nobody cared for my pain, he kept on moving and moving inside me.
This, this is my life!
When I woke up, the sky was already bright. My abdomen was in pain, and someone put a pad down there.
Suddenly, someone knocked on the door and asked: “Ms Gomez, can I come in?”
It was Lance’s servant.
I moved my lips and voiced out. “Come in.” my voice was hoarse.
The servant came in with breakfast in her hands. “Ms Gomez, here’s your breakfast, this is from sir.”
I stared at the breakfast but I didn’t have any appetite. I thought about the pad and wanted to asked if she was the one who helped me put on. But then I thought, of course, period is blood and Lance must think it’s dirty, he wouldn’t help me put it.
“Alright, I’ll eat it, you may leave.”
I stood up from the bed and my abdomen hurt even more. This time it was a lot. Must be because of the abortion surgery plus the sex last night.
I went to the bathroom and changed to a night use pad. I was already soaked in cold sweat by that time.
I forced myself to eat the hot porridge a little and had the servant cleaned it up for me.
The servants told me to rest well and even served lunch to my room. They told me that Lance would be back at night.
With shivering body, I went back to the bed and hid under the blankets, recalling the nightmare yesterday
I wanted to live peacefully, but the devil doesn’t want to grant me that wish.
I recalled the novel I once read when I was still in university. It is about a bad boy CEO and a girl. He made the girl miscarried three times and even nearly had someone raped her. She wanted to get her revenge but in the end her heart softened. Later, the CEO regret and treated her better and in the end, the girl forgave him.
If me and Lance are in the novel, there would be no forgiveness between us, only hatred for each other.
Lance would never love me, and I would never love him either.
Why not, I play a death or alive game with him?
It doesn’t have to be me who die, right?
Since Lance Mason was the one who started the game, then I shall end it.
I got excited thinking about it.
Then after a long time I only realized I was crazy, not excited.
I bit my teeth and struggled to get out of bed, I walked out of the bedroom and looked around to see if there’s any hidden camera.
Hmm, no, I didn’t see any.