My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 59

Chapter 59 LANCE’S POV 

I stared at the little women sleeping in my arm, feeling complicated. The scars on her body broke my heart into pieces.

If this happened one year ago, I would have been so happy, but right now, this wasn’t what I wanted to see.

She cried to me, telling me she’s really afraid this time and begged me not to treat her this way anymore.

For the first time, her tears softened my heart.

I have a very embarrassing secret. Ever since I became an adult, I kept having racy dreams. In my dreams, I was always making love to a woman. I couldn‘t see her face clearly, but I remember very vividly the red birthmark on her breasts area. When I accidentally ripped off Jennie‘s shirt that time and saw her red birthmark, I was completely stunned. I couldn‘t believe my eyes! So Jennie Gomez has always been the female in my sex dreams?

But when I was 18, she was merely only 10! How is this possible! 

And on that same day, I had the same dream again. But this time I could see her face, it was Jennie Gomez. I was covered in cold sweat that night, I never thought that the woman who took my heart and soul away in my dreams is the woman I hated so much. 

To be honest, I couldn‘t accept this. It was like you hate one type of food, but someone told you that you have eaten this food more than one time.

I didn‘t have enough time to digest this unbelievable fact. And as I was going to see Leo to talk about some stuff, I saw Jennie‘s message on his phone, asking him to meet her at the hotel.

Leo was going to marry Lia the next day, yet Jennie invited him to the hotel, what was she thinking. I wouldn‘t allow my dear brothers family to be ruined by her.

Only after many years later, I only realised that I had been using Leo as an excuse, to separate them. It had always been me, I wanted to possess that woman, I wanted her all to myself.

Once I saw the message, I went back to my room and drank some whiskey, alcohol always make people extra reckless. And after that, I drove to the hotel and saw her in this beautiful red dress, like she was the bridesmaid. And right at that moment, I couldn’t control myself anymore, I couldn’t resist the woman that I have hated for so long. I used drunk as an excuse and forced myself onto her....... 

But I knew it was just an excuse. I wasn’t even drunk at the very least. I just used that

as an excuse to touch her, to make her mine. I wanted to know if she would feel even better than in my dreams.

In fact, she felt even more better than in my dreams. It was amazing. It was wonderful.

Last time, when she was still only in my dreams, I could use other women to satisfy my own needs. But ever since I touched her body, and made love to her, I became only interested in her. Other women can’t satisfy my needs anymore. And with a wave of my hands, Jennie became my secret lover.

Sometimes I wonder, this must be our fate. She appeared in my dreams for nearly 10 years, and we did so many intimate stuff in my dreams, even our blood type is the same.

Then I even dreamed about her giving birth to my son. 

So when I knew she was pregnant with my child, and was 3 months pregnant, I was stunned. But then she aborted our child without hesitation and I got so mad. She asked me jokingly if I liked her.

In her eyes, I have always been the powerful and rich Lance Mason, I always look down on her, how would I even like her?

Later only did I realize that it‘s not that I didn‘t like her, it was me who didn’t want to admit that I like her.

In this world, the people that I love most is my grandma and Leo. So when grandma was injured and every evidence pointed at her, I was angry. My hatred for her hasn‘t 

sappear and I also realized that my feelings for her had changed from hatred to something better, I hate that she’s already my woman.

My assistant made some phone calls and when he came back to report to me, his face was not looking good. He said: “Sir, something happened to Ms Gomez.”